“Thanks,” I say, cutting her off before we both
break out sobbing. “I appreciate it.”
She smiles at me with her big wet eyes, leaving
me alone with my thoughts, my anxieties and my
fears.
I’m three exams from graduating, then I’ve got
to do my thesis. I can wrap that all up and then …
and then we’ll see. I don’t need Nate. But I really
am alone.
Dad is gone and Mom lives in San Francisco.
I’ve got nobody here except for Rain. How will I
make it? Nate was right when he said I’ve never
done anything on my own. I have always been
daddy’s spoilt little girl. I’ve never had to ask for
anything or force myself to do anything. It was
always there waiting for me, wrapped and ready to
go. I work at the pub, it’s true—my dad always
made fun of me for that, thinking it was just my
way of showing my independence. And I guess in
a way it was true, at least in the beginning, but I’ve
come to like the place, the people, and the clients
who come here. It’s almost become like a second
home for me here.
I’m an only child and it’s always been just Dad
and me. I don’t have cousins and Dad was also an
only child and the grandparents died when I was
little. All my mother’s family are in the States, so I
really don’t have anyone else to count on. Dad
didn’t want to go, leaving me here, but I had Nate
and Dad trusted him. I couldn’t have imagined he
