dampened by the night air.
We stay like that for a bit while I let myself lean
up against the wall, bringing her with me. She
snuggles up to me and slowly calms down. Her
hiccupping stops and her breathing slows down.
I sigh and count the beats that my stupid
fucking heart is pounding out against my chest,
reminding me that perhaps, someplace, I have a
heart too.
I close my eyes and swear again to myself,
because I’m just starting to realize that I’ve been
foolish, an asshole and, worse, an asshole who
deceives himself.
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Erin
“Well, he sure is an asshole.”
I nod, drinking another sip of tea. I’m not
working today and I’ve gone by Nate’s house to
get a few things. I didn’t have a lot of time, I didn’t
want to run into him, so I went when I knew he
would be at school. I took two big bags and threw
all my stuff in. A few outfits, underwear, personal
things. I have to go back and get the rest, but I still
don’t feel like doing so.
I’ve been staying in Liam’s ex-apartment for a
week, practically since Rain invited me to stay. I
haven’t said much to the guys about it, just that I’ll
be staying here a few days and to their credit, they
didn’t ask me about it. They always have been
pretty discreet and I appreciate that.
