“Erin.” I look for eye contact. “Look at me. I’m
nothing without you. Nothing. The time we spent
apart was un-livable and I never want to feel that
way again. And when I thought I could have lost
you…” I hold back the tears. “My heart
completely stopped. I would have given anything
to have you back with me, I would have traded my
life for yours.”
Erin shakes her head and hides her face and her
tears.
“Erin O’Neill, I am in love with you, and I
should have told you before, I know. I was wrong.
Because you deserve to hear it, to hear it every day
of your fucking life, and I’m going to say it every
day. To love you every moment and with every
breath and to tell you again and again until it
makes you nauseous. I will demonstrate it in every
way I can. And I do not promise you that I will not
commit some random act of bullshit or that I will
stop swearing because I don’t want to lie to you,
ever. But, I can promise you that I will always love
you, that I will love Lily as my own, because that
baby, Erin, has been mine since the first day I
knew of her existence. Erin, I promise to love you
and respect you and to never withhold my support
and my love. I will try to make you happy, I will
make myself lovable, I swear. I will try with all of
my strength because I am indisputably and fucking
yours.”
I get down on my knee to do this thing right.
