to such a decision.”
And that’s how it is. I love him. And there are
no scarier or bigger words that that, but that’s what
love is. It’s enormous. It’s so big it can’t fit in my
heart. But it is a selfish love because I want him all
for us. I want his constant presence, his kisses and
caresses. His jokes and his cussing. I want all of
his time and attention. I want it so much I’m afraid
of destroying everything with my own hands.
Patrick is a wonderful man that has many things
to offer a woman, he just needed a way to vent his
anger and use his love instead. I know it will be
difficult to get over but it’s the right thing to do
and with time, he’ll realize it too.
He needs a woman that loves him and cuddles
him on cold nights, that makes him smile on black
days and is all for him and that one day will give
him his family,hisfamily, not someone else’s. He
needs a woman who doesn’t need him, his help or
support but a woman who wants to stay with him
because she wants him and desires him, not
because he has to take care of her.
And I need to find my road, alone without Nate,
without my parents and without his love.
Patrick
“Hey, buddy, everything’s ready.”
“Be there in a minute.”
“Sure you’re up to playing?”
Play, eat, sleep, breathe.
Live.
