who I am for the sake of loving someone else.
I didn’t have any idea how much it could really
hurt. I wasn’t even remotely close to imagining
what you could feel when someone opens your
chest with their bare hands and rips your heart out
with their nails.
The door opens again and I regret the fact that
in this fucking house there is no concept of
privacy. A man isn’t free to drown in his own
fucking misery.
Rain sits on my bed without saying anything.
She rubs my head and smiles at me sadly. She’s
got red puffy eyes, so she must have been crying
too. Like always.
I sit up a bit to look at her better. Her eyes talk
for her. She’s feeling just as bad as I am.
So I stand up and hug her. I hold her tight until
we both burst out crying again.
“She left,” she cries. “She went to go stay with
her father,” she continues and I squeeze my eyes
shut tight and try to get back to breathing
regularly.
Erin has left, taking every word, every caress,
every kiss and every hope away with her.
And nothing will ever be the same.
I will never be the same.
Erin has left.
Taking the best part of me with her.
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