starting to shake. “I did expect better of you,” she
concludes on the verge of tears as she gets up and
heads upstairs.
There is no place I cannot go … My mind is
muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show? I lose
the track that loses me, so here I go.
What do they all want from me? What are they
trying to find under the surface? I’m not hiding
anything. I am an absolute nothing and will remain
so. For all of my fucking life. I will not let myself
be taken for a fool anymore nor will I ever let a
woman try to get close to what she doesn’t know,
something that’s so deep inside of me, that is total
blackness and all it does is suck everything into
itself in an instant to then destroy it in a second.
Because I destroy every fucking thing.
Give me reason but don’t give me choice …
’Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again.
5
The last words of that depressed asshole James
Blunt push me over the edge and I turn my back to
the counter and throw the glass I was washing
against the wall. I throw it with all the force I have
5Same Mistake, James Blunt, All the Lost Souls
in my body. It’s enough to almost dislocate my
shoulder.
The customers all turn to see what’s happening
and I come up with some stupid excuse to get
away from this disgusting pub, this stupid family
and from her and the hope that there could be
