and you’re quite arrogant.”
Okay, I’m not shocked by her words, but they
do bother me because she is my family and I
thought she saw something more in me.
“Do you know why I allowed you to get close
to her even though I know you so well? Because I
saw something in you. A spark that was in your
eyes the night you went out there and gave Nate
what he had coming to him. And I saw another one
when you went with her to go get her things. And
another one still when you were playing with the
band and you had an expression on your face of
someone who would drop to his knees and beg the
woman he loves to be his forever. You see, I
thought that with her you would finally cool off a
bit, that you would confess to yourself that you’re
better than what you want yourself to believe. And
instead, it seems I was wrong, because here you
are being what you always are, making the same
mistakes and you don’t let anybody get close to
you and love you.”
“You know full well what I am, Rain. I never
kept it a secret. This is it,” I say, spreading out my
arms. “All I am is this piece of shit, there’s nothing
else there, and I’ve got nothing to hide, no deep
feelings or anything else, okay? Get it into your
head!”
I finish up my little discourse by raising my
voice a few decibels.
“You’ve disappointed me, Patrick,” she says,
