Which is why I'm taking Ellis and Nate out for a guy’s day. Guy’sdate. Violet gave me permission and told me she appreciated me asking. We've all agreed she's in charge of our relationship, which is actually a relief for me. Her encouragement to go out with them and figure my feelings out makes this easier.
I may be dominant with Violet, but she's still independent and fluid with her submission. We don't stay rigid in our dynamic twenty-four-seven, but Violet will always be the one in control. Her submission, caring for her, and guiding her when she needs it is a privilege to me. Same with Ellis and Nate.
She holds all the cards, and it's a damn good thing because it helps build my confidence. Plus, my girl is going to meet me at my apartment after this date and I'm already salivating over it.
"Hey," Ellis greets as he slides into the booth next to me.
Taking a chance, I grab his thigh and pull him close. "You look nervous," I whisper in his ear just as Nate slides into the other seat across from us. I can feel my control slowly withering away. Something about having these two men in my company under dim lighting out in public unravels me a bit.
"Maybe a little," Ellis murmurs and shivers. I wonder if he's remembering how he gagged on my cock beneath a table similar to this one.
"Hmm." Backing off a bit, I study his tight features, which tense even more as I slide my hand further up his thigh. I grin when his breath catches. He's definitely thinking the same thing as me.Would he suck my cock as well as he did the first time if I shoved him beneath the table?
A boot taps my calf, making me glance at Nate. Nate clears his throat with a raised eyebrow. "Jamie. Let’s order some food and hang out like we agreed."
"Fine," I grumble and slide my hand closer to Ellis' knee. "You're right. Although if this goes well, Violet promised to be waiting in my bed for me. She even said something about lingerie."
"Fuuuck," Ellis groans and hangs his head.
I laugh and flag the waiter. The young man eyes us with a bit of curiosity, but I don't mind. Let him speculate.
"A round of waters and I'll take a Coke as well, please," I request.
The guy nods and looks at Ellis, but Nate takes over. "I'll have a Coke as well, and he'll have a Sprite. Please."
"Sure thing. Any apps?"
"Oh fuck yeah," Ellis hoots, rubbing his hands together and ordering a few shareables.
My cheeks hurt from smiling at him by the time the waiter leaves. Ellis catches my eye and does a double take when he sees the pure joy that must be obvious on my face. "What?"
"Nothing," I reply, shaking my head. "You're just adorable."
That earns me a scowl. "No I'm not."
Nate chuckles without looking up from the menu. "Ellis," he drawls. "You have many sides to you. Adorable is definitely one of them. Especially when you get excited about food."
"Well, who doesn't get excited about their Daddies letting them get appetizers?"
Oh, the little shit. "Don't call us that," I growl, grabbing his thigh in warning.
"But you have so many sides to you," he coos, batting his thick eyelashes.
Nate sighs and looks at me. "I heard him and Violet laughing about ourDaddyvibes the other day. We're gonna need to do something about that."
"Food first," Ellis declares and studies the menu like he didn't just push our buttons.
"And talking," I agree and hone in on Ellis. "How goes the job hunt?"
Ellis stiffens to my surprise and avoids eye contact. "Do we have to talk about that?"
Taken aback, I turn to give him my full attention. "Now we definitely do. What's going on?"
Ellis sighs and thanks our waiter for the drinks as they're handed out. At least he's polite as he evades my questions. When I check Nate's reaction to the tension, I find he also looks confused. So, we're both not in the know.
We don't push him, but we don't fill the silence either. Finally, Ellis leans back in his seat and shares his worries. "I don't think I can go back into the nursing field. The stress and constant pressure to save everyone didn't do my temper any favors. Hell, I was a dick to Blue's men when they came in after she was found. I still feel so much guilt for how I treated them all because I was heartbroken by V."
I listen and don't judge. He's working through his shit and trying to figure out what might trigger him. I'm feeling damn proud.
