"So I'll never find him," I say.
"Probably not. But Brock might. He knows Devon better than you do. I bet he could predict where he'd end up."
"But Brock would never tell me. And I can't use the I-need-to-find-my-dad excuse anymore after telling Brock I know his secret."
"You told him?"
"I didn't tell you?"
"No. When'd you tell him?"
"Yesterday morning. He drove me to school and I blurted it out."
"Why would you do that?"
"It just came out. He was saying how he doesn't lie to me, which made me mad because it's another lie. I told him that and he asked for examples. I brought up my mom and how he had an affair with her, then I told him I know he's my dad."
"What'd he say?"
"Nothing. I got out of his car and left. I can't believe I didn't tell you this."
"He hasn't said anything since you told him?"
"We talked about it on the way to counseling. He said I'm not supposed to tell anyone."
"Did he say why?"
"Because it would hurt Trystan and Braden to know that he cheated on their mom. It's a lame excuse. I don't believe him. But we made a deal that if I keep his secret, he has to tell me everything that happened back then."
"He's not going to do that. He either won't tell you or he'll make stuff up."
"Maybe, but I'll at least be able to ask him questions."
"The only person who might tell you the truth is Devon."
"That's why I need to find him. I know we don't know where he is but could we drive to that town and just look around?"
"We're not going to find him just driving around the town."
"I still want to do it. I have this strong feeling he's still there. Please, Jackson. It's only two hours away and you said you'd help me try to find him."
"I can't leave La Jolla. I'm out on bail. I'm not allowed to leave."
I sigh. "That's right. I wasn't thinking about that."
Roman appears again, not saying anything as he goes past us through the living room to the hall that leads to his bedroom.
"I have to ask you something," I say in a low voice as Roman goes in his room and closes the door.
"Go ahead."
"It's about your dad. The guys at lunch said he's part of the mob, or connected with them somehow."
Jackson laughs. "They're still spreading that rumor? I didn't think anyone talked about that anymore."
"So it's not true?"
"No. A tabloid put out that story to sell more copies when one of my dad's movies released. It was one of his biggest movies so he was getting a lot of press."
