I did trust him. I wanted this. But it still was the first time. And I was an amateur.
His wide cock head pushed against my entrance, but he didn’t go forward. Instead, he kissed me and played with my nipples, keeping me on the edge. When he did thrust forward, stretching me like I never had been before, I gasped and arched my back. It burned. It felt like too much pressure. He was so big and thick and I was a petite woman and?—
“Trust me, Kalina,” he whispered in my ear before kissing me slowly. Drugged under the spell of his lips on mine, his hands caressing my body like he was worshiping something he didn’t think he deserved, he pushed in further. Then further again.
I almost figured he’d slam all the way inside me. Deep and hard. But that wasn’t right. That was how Erik and Yusef called it. They were the ones who told me I should be ready to be fucked,hard and ruthlessly, because that was what men would want from me.
I wasn’t supposed to be worthy of love or tender touches. Patience wasn’t supposed to be part of this. I was supposed to be raped and deflowered. To be used and then dismissed. But as Alexsei continued to thrust into me, rubbing along the sensitive inner walls of my pussy and urging me closer to letting go, I knew this was something different. Something special.
Hewas something special. Of course, he was. I’d chosen him to be my first. I picked him to be the one to take my virginity, something I could never give anyone else.
Because deep down, I trusted him with not only my body, and to pleasure me, but also with my heart.
Trapped in his intense stare as he gazed at me, whipping his hips back and forth with every withdrawal and thrust, I saw the connection I couldn’t shy away from.
This wasn’t merely sex.
This wasn’t only my first time having intercourse, when I’d lose my virginity that was intended to be sold to someone I didn’t know or want.
This went deeper. More soulful. Between us, something stronger and more significant was brewing and building.
As I came suddenly, almost blinded by the power of bliss that stole over me, igniting my blood and sizzling my every nerve ending, he kissed me.
With reverence. With pride. With support and everything I could’ve wanted from a lover.
“That’s my good girl,” he rasped against my mouth, still pounding into me steadily.
Oh, God.
He just had to say that. His praise never failed to ramp up my desire and make me come harder. I clutched him as I trembled. I heaved in air as I shivered and rode out the waves of pleasure.
“Come for me like a good girl, Kalina.”
I squeezed my eyes shut tight, so full and stretched. So covered and treasured.
I was safe—safe to let go, once and for all.
As he kissed me again, not lifting his lips off me as he strained and grunted when he came, too, I felt like in his arms, with him filling me like this, I was finally free.
My past would always be a stain on my mind, but with his taking me like no man ever had before, he helped to erase one more big facet of my fate that I swore would never come true.
19
ALEXSEI
Kalina and I adapted to this new edition of our routine.
Every night, she would come into my room or I would visit hers.
Each day, we spent time with Misha and just relaxing in or outdoors.
But it was the nighttime trysts that we both seemed so eager for.
There was a chance that she might be confusing her reliance on me as a safety net, just because of the heat of the moment. Maybe she was placing too much of an emphasis of her recovery on getting pleasure from me. But I tried not to dwell on the dynamics of it all.
I kept my plan simple—to make her feel as comfortable and safe as possible.
Hopefully, I’d be able to avoid getting too attached to her in the process. That already seemed like a lost cause. The more time we spent together, learning about each other outside of bed, had me wanting to know everything about what made her the sweet,calm woman that she was. With every stolen night of passion we shared, forced together to live in this cabin with no escape, it felt like a vacation from reality, a break fromlifethat I hadn’t realized I’d needed.
