When I can tell Blake doesn’t have anything left in him. I pull out and head to the bathroom. Coming back with a warm wet cloth, I clean him up before crawling back into bed and wrapping him up in my arms.
This moment is everything I could have dreamed of and more. Blake is the best sex I’ve ever had, the only person I ever want to be with in this way again. Be with in any way.
People might think I’m crazy for this, but I know Blake is my forever.
“Did you mean it?” Blake asks as we lay there in the dark, bodies spent and balls empty.
“Mean what?”
He rolls in my arms so that he’s facing me. “That you love me?” He chews on his lower lip.
“Yeah, baby. I meant it. I’m crazy about you. Crazy in love with you.”
“Good. Because I’m crazy in love with you, too.”
We kiss softly for a bit, my heart too damn full I know I’m going to be grinning like a fool for days.
Eventually we fall asleep in one another's arms and as I drift off into slumber, I can’t help but wish that every night ends like this. With the love of my life in my arms.
One day it will be. I’ll make sure of it.
Chapter 20
Blake
“Blakey Poo!” Val sing-songs as she skips over to where Cooper and I as we walk toward the building for our first class of the day.
We just got back from getting breakfast and coffee like we always do. It’s a part of our daily routine at this point.
“You know, when we first met and she was pretty much kidnapping me off the side of the highway, I thought she was crazy. Like really batshit crazy,” I tell Cooper.
He snorts out a laugh. “Yeah, I could see that. She kind of is. But in the kindest way.”
“Now, I honestly couldn’t see my life without her. Without any of them really.”
Cooper stops and spins around to face me, with a massive smile that splits his face from ear to ear that has me groaning. “Has my angry kitten grown a soft spot?” His voice is filled with amusement.
“Shut up.” I roll my eyes. “Of course you love this.”
“I do!” He chuckles. “You love my friends, don’t you?”
“They’re our friends,” I grumble, shooting him a glaring look.
I’m not sure how he does it, but somehow he smiles wider. “Yeah they are.”
My cheeks flush with nervous embarrassment. No matter what, I can’t seem to accept positive things from anyone without feeling embarrassed, especially Cooper. It’s something I’m slowly accepting that I deserve. Sometimes there's this little part of me that tries to convince myself that I’m not worthy of their friendship, but I’ve been working on that self negativity.
When I don’t want to worry Cooper, I’ll talk it through with Davis and Rylee. They’ve been an amazing support system through all of the new changes in my life. And a great hype team.
They love Cooper, even though they’ve never met him. They think he’s good for me and that means a lot.
Sadly, as time goes by, their lives have been getting busier and we don’t get to chat as often as we used to.
I felt bad, because I thought I was too preoccupied with Cooper and was ignoring the two people who have been there for me the most in my life when I needed them.
But they assured me that I had nothing to feel guilty about, because they’re starting new chapters in their lives, too. Davis got a new job that has pretty much taken up all his time and Rylee is going on a spontaneous backpacking tour through Europe with her girlfriend.
We still check in as much as we can, and chat when someone needs the other the most.
