I didn’t even know how to process that.
Before I could give it much thought, I sensed a presence and turned to see Vincent standing in my doorway, his hard eyes on the bag I had in my hand.
“I’m almost ready,” I said as I wondered if I’d been dallying too long. The man hadn’t actually barked out a time limit like he usuallydid, but the hard set of his jaw was telling me he was pissed just the same.
I turned to head towards the bathroom to grab my toiletries, but just as quickly I was spun back around as Vincent wrapped his hand around my elbow.
“Vincent-”
“Shut up,” he snapped, and then he took the bag from my hand and flung it to the floor. Then his fingers curled around my hand and he led me from the room. I held my tongue as I realized our destination.
His room.
I hated the shimmer of hope that went through me at the prospect of getting to be with him one last time. It was pathetic that I would take even the crumbs he threw my way, but I wasn’t going to try to deny it. Or pretend I was somehow strong enough to say no. Or that I had enough pride left.
Because I didn’t.
I expected him to lead me to the bed, but he surprised me when he shoved me up against the wall next to the door and pinned my arms next to my head. The move hadn’t actually hurt me, but it had caught me off guard.
“Vincent, what-”
“If this thing is going to work, Nathan, you need to stop assuming things and actually stop running long enough to give me time to think…and speak.”
I wanted to laugh at that, because the man had never had an issue with telling me what he thought before.
“You had plenty to say downstairs,” I reminded him.
He eyed me for a moment, and then he released me and dragged me over to the bed. I was on my back beneath his heavy body in one swift move. He ground his very hard cock against mine and I cursed the fabric that was separating us.
“Maybe now you’ll shut the fuck up and listen,” he groused. His lips fell to mine, but he didn’t actually kiss me. “This is the only place you said you’d take orders from me, right, Nate?” he drawled.
I nodded, though he knew very well what kind of orders I’dbeen talking about. Theget nakedkind. I thought back to the very inexperienced blow job I’d given him this morning. Maybe I’d get a chance to improve on my earlier score.
“Nathan, focus,” Vincent growled, and I realized I’d dropped my eyes to where our hips were grinding together.
“Stop humping my dick and I will,” I bit back. “Or shut the hell up and just kiss me already.”
He did neither of those things. Just continued to hold me pinned to the bed as he studied me.
“You’re not the only one I don’t want reading too much into what all this means,” he finally admitted. His words were enough to help me focus on what he was saying instead of what his body was doing to mine.
His lips finally brushed over mine and he settled more of his weight down on me. “I knew the second the words left my lips this morning that I wouldn’t be able to do it, Nate.”
“Do what?” I whispered.
“Let you go.”
Heat lanced through my body and my chest felt insanely tight.
“Vincent-”
He kissed me to shut me up again and then he was pressing his forehead against mine. “I can’t want this, Nathan. Do you understand me? Not don’t…can’t.”
I nodded and squeezed my eyes closed because Ididunderstand. “You won’t lose me, Vincent. I promise,” I whispered desperately.
He kissed me again. “Baby, you know it isn’t about making me that promise.”
I wanted to cry because I knew he was right. And I wanted to curse whoever was hunting him that had taken his ability to choose me away. I wanted to tell him it wasn’t fair, but he’d had his share of not fair. His career stolen, his lover lost to him forever, his brother brutally murdered…I didn’t hold that same station in his life, but maybe I could have.
