I used my hand to brace myself on Memphis’s sweat slickened chest as I began lifting my hips up before dropping them back down. He grunted every time I did it, but his eyes were still closed.
“Look at me,” I whispered and as soon as he opened his eyes, I tightened my inner muscles on him and lifted almost all the way off.Memphis let out a harsh curse and then lifted his hips up as I dropped back down. As good as it felt, I kept my eyes on his, which had gone black with wild pleasure.
“Touch me,” I urged as I reached to pull his hands free of the comforter.
“I’ll come too fast if I touch you,” he bit out even as his fingers dug into my thighs.
“The sooner you come, the sooner I get to do this all over again to you,” I murmured as I took his hands and lifted them to my chest and urged him to follow a path down my body. I snaked his hands around to my ass and groaned in satisfaction when he palmed me hard. Then I felt one of his fingers pushing inside of me and I let out a rough shout as a stream of pre-cum leaked out of my cock.
“You still want me to touch you?” Memphis said gruffly even as he began thrusting his finger in and out of my body.
“Maybe not,” I said with a laugh and I reached behind me to grab his wrists. I pinned them to the bed by his head and leaned my body over him even as I continued to pump up and down on him.
Memphis’s breaths became much harsher as I worked us into a frenzy and while he tried to get his hands free of my hold, he didn’t try as hard as he could have because if he had, there would have been no way for me to hold him. The knowledge that I was in complete control now was a major rush and I dared to drop my mouth against his and whisper, “I want to fuck you like this someday – holding you down like this so all you can do is feel.”
I was shocked when Memphis came before I even finished my sentence. His release triggered my own and I quickly grabbed my dick with one hand and gave it several hard tugs, but I managed to keep my eyes on Memphis as pleasure caused his eyes to go wide and wild for a moment, before relief relaxed his expression even as his body continued to thrust into mine. I let my own orgasm wash over me and when the shudders finally eased, I released Memphis’s wrist with my other hand and linked his fingers with mine. His cock continued to pulse deep inside of me and we lay there in silence until the passion completely subsided. His lips found mine and then he was rolling me to my back.
We hadn’t talked much since I’d arrived at his hotel. I’d been all ready to demand that Memphis tell me why he’d been avoiding me this past week, but like all the other times we’d come together, he’d started kissing me before I could even speak. And while I wanted that, I also found that I needed confirmation that what we had wasn’t just physical anymore. I just didn’t know how to approach it with him. I also wasn’t sure I was willing to give up what we had if Memphis refused to acknowledge that it was about more than just sex.
“I’ll order us some room service and then we can shower,” Memphis whispered against my lips.
I’d chickened out with the sayingI love you, but I wasn’t going to accept things as they were any more either.
“Let’s go eat in the hotel restaurant,” I suggested.
I hadn’t expected Memphis to readily agree, but I’d hoped he think about it for more than two seconds before muttering, “No.”
Memphis climbed off of me and went to the bathroom.
Go big or go home.
Tristan’s words rang in my ears and I knew he was right. I’d never been afraid to take risks and I’d never hidden who I was.
I got up and followed Memphis, not caring that I was naked and covered in my own juices. He was in the process of turning on the shower, but I grabbed his arm before he could step into it. “Is this all it’s going to be?” I asked as I motioned between us.
“We agreed to the rules-”
“Fuck your rules,” I snapped and I inordinately thought of Tristan once again. “It stopped being about your precious rules a long time ago,” I said. I forced myself to soften as I said, “It’s just dinner, Memphis.”
“Then what?” He asked angrily. “Dinner tonight. Maybe lunch tomorrow. Then a movie. Maybe some hand holding. Then the talk about are we boyfriends and where are things going? Then it’s meeting the family-”
“That’s what normal people do in a relationship!” I interrupted.
“Why isn’t this enough for you?” Memphis asked. “Why amInot enough for you?”
His question caught me off guard, though I suspected it wouldn’t have mattered because he continued on without even letting me respond.
“Go ahead, ask me your three questions!” Memphis snapped.
I shook my head in confusion. “I don’t know-”
“Why the rules, Memphis?” Memphis said angrily. “Because without them I’m the one who gets fucked over again!”
“Memphis-” I said quietly in the hopes of diffusing his anger, but he ignored me.
“What do you mean by again, Memphis?” Memphis bit out. “Because the lastrelationshipI was in meant me having to watch the man who supposedly loved me more than life itself fuck every man and woman who caught his eye and then saying it didn’t fucking mean anything because he only loved me!”
I kept silent after that as Memphis continued like I wasn’t even there. “Six fucking years I listened to him tell me that what we had was perfect. Six years of having him bring other people intoourbed and insisting it was for us! To make us stronger! Six years of his lies!”
