“No!” was all he said and his voice was so rough and chalky, it sounded like a snarl. And then his mouth was on mine, his hands holding my wrists in place against the stainless steel at my back.
I’d like to say I fought Ronan’s kiss but I didn’t. Not even a little. My brain may not have wanted Ronan but my body welcomed him like it always did. But this time around, I wasn’t content to just take what Ronan was giving me. I battled for control of the kiss and when I finally won, I managed to pry my hands free of Ronan’s hold. I let my tongue search out every recess of his mouth as I maneuvered us so it was his back pressed up against the refrigerator. I had my hands on his waist but, to my surprise, he didn’t move away from my touch or try to stop me from pressing my fingers into his sides. But I could also feel the tension running through his frame so I knew I only had precious seconds to maintain what little power over him that I had for the moment.
As I continued to make love to his mouth, I let one of my hands slide down to stroke over his erection. Ronan gasped against mymouth and then he took over the kiss. But he didn’t stop me from exploring his length where it bulged impressively against his pants. There was enough give in his waistband to allow me to sink my hand inside so I could grip his cock. I shouldn’t have been surprised by the softness of his skin stretched over the hardness of his flesh since I’d touched myself like this more times than I could count, but nothing about it was the same.
Ronan finally stopped kissing me once I began exploring his cock but his lips hovered over mine, his hot breath fanning my mouth as he tried to get control of himself. But I didn’t want him to be in control and I began stroking him in earnest, hoping that I was using enough pressure to bring him pleasure. I could only assume as he began thrusting into my hand that I was doing a reasonably adequate job. But it was over too soon because Ronan let out a muffled curse before grabbing both my arms and forcing me back against the island counter behind me. I’d definitely succeeded in snapping his control because all his movements after that lacked finesse.
He spun me around and shoved me down over the butcher block countertop. His weight pressed against me as he began rubbing his crotch all over my ass and a second later, I felt his fingers working my pants open. We’d been in this exact position before but this time there was no fear and not because my hands weren’t tied. No, I wanted this. I didn’t want to want it but I couldn’t deny the need to feel Ronan inside of me again.
I shoved my ass back against Ronan and groaned when I felt his erection push against me. Ronan separated from me only long enough to shove my pants and underwear down and then he was back and I gasped at the feel of his bare cock nudging my cheeks. I had no idea how he’d managed to get his pants open too but as his hot flesh speared through the globes of my ass, I didn’t care. Ronan’s lips sought out the nape of my neck and he kissed, sucked and nipped at my skin as I squirmed desperately beneath him. My hands were flat on the wood beneath me but I couldn’t stop myself from reaching behind me to seek Ronan’s warm skin out. My fingertipsbrushed over the hair on his thighs and I relished the feel of it as I ran my palms up and down his hot flesh.
I’d been too distracted to notice Ronan getting the lube, presumably from his wallet, but I couldn’t help but shiver from the coldness of it as his finger breached me without warning. But unlike the night he’d made love to me, Ronan didn’t take his time letting me adjust. There was no pain as he sank his finger inside of me but I groaned at the feel of a second finger splitting me open just a few seconds later. It was then that I knew I was going to be fucked hard and fast just like the way Ronan had promised that day in the bathroom before he’d realized my distress. But there was no fear this time. I wanted it…badly.
Ronan’s weight pressed down on my back once again, his hips shoving me forward. I was forced to use my hands to brace myself but I couldn’t dwell on missing out on touching Ronan because I felt his cock nudging at my hole a second later. And while he didn’t just shove into me, he also gave no quarter as inch after inch of hot, rigid flesh speared into me. The burn bordered on painful but then the heat began to flare out to my limbs and I pressed back to try and take more of him into me. His flesh felt so hot inside of me that it took me several long seconds to realize why.
Ronan wasn’t wearing a condom.
I didn’t get a chance to say anything because Ronan bottomed out inside of me at that exact moment and I let out a hoarse groan and buried my mouth against my arm to stifle the sound. Ronan stilled and then pressed his mouth against my ear.
“I’ve been tested. I’m negative,” he whispered. “Tell me it’s okay.”
I knew it wasn’t the responsible answer, nor was it the answer that would keep me from losing more of myself to this man but I didn’t even hesitate for a second. “Yes.”
The one word was like a starter gun for Ronan because he pulled almost all the way out of me before shoving in hard and deep. A throaty moan erupted from deep inside of him as he said my name and then he slammed into me again.
Chapter 13
Ronan
TakingSeth without a condom was the second stupidest thing I could have done, the first being putting my hands on him yet again. And I didn’t even have the justification that I was too caught up in the moment to worry about protecting Seth the way I should have. Because I’d done it deliberately. I’d seen the condom in my wallet when I’d gotten the packet of lube and I’d made the decision that I needed all of Seth before he made me walk away from him.
Worse, I needed him to have a part of me that no one else had ever had, not even Trace.
Beyond the vise-like grip Seth’s ass had on my cock, his heat burned me and the feel of his smooth walls sliding over my ultra-sensitive flesh had me struggling to keep my orgasm at bay. The only man I hadn’t ever used condoms with had been Trace and since he’d steadfastly refused to bottom for me, I’d had no idea what to expect when I slid into Seth without the latex barrier separating us. And anything I could have come up with would have been utterly lacking. Because being inside of Seth this way, having him bent over in total submission, his tight body cloaking me in a veil of perfection I was afraid I would never escape from, was beyond anything I could have imagined. But what was worse, and what Isuspected had little to do with being bare inside of Seth, was the feeling of completeness that came over me as Seth’s body cradled mine.
As physically close as we were, it didn’t seem like enough so I wrapped my arm around Seth’s chest and drew him up until he was flush against my body. He groaned as the position forced even more of my length inside of him and I couldn’t resist taking his mouth with mine as I continued to hammer into him. With my arms wrapped around him like they were, Seth couldn’t move his arms but he used his kiss to touch me instead. As badly as I’d hurt him and as angry as he was with me, he didn’t hold anything back as his tongue mated with mine and his inner muscles tightened on my aching shaft as if trying to keep me inside of him.
I could feel the end drawing near as electricity began firing up my spine and I began pumping into Seth with shallow, jerky thrusts that I had no control over. Seth whimpered as his own body stiffened against me and I reached my right hand down to close around his leaking cock. The second I lowered my arm, his hands came up to grab a hold of the forearm I had wrapped around his chest. His nails dug into my skin as he shouted against my lips and his ass clamped down on my dick with so much pressure that I could barely breathe. My orgasm ripped through me as I felt Seth’s hips jerk against my hand and then his come was dripping over my fingers. I yanked my mouth from Seth’s as wave after wave of pleasure rocketed through me and I bit down on his shoulder, grateful that his shirt separated my teeth from his skin. I held him that way as I rutted into him over and over as each ripple of his internal muscles pulled my come from my body. The heat from my climax bathed us both and when I finally released my hold on Seth’s shoulder, he slumped forward and I followed him down and let all my weight pin him to the countertop. Aftershocks kept making my body jerk and Seth would let out a little moan each time as his body twitched in response.
If I’d been a smarter man, I would have left things where they were at and just pulled free of Seth’s body. But Seth’s last words to me kept playing on a loop in my head and I couldn’t stop myselffrom leaning down, putting my mouth next to his ear and saying, “We’ll never be done.”
Seth’s whole body tightened beneath mine and I knew it wasn’t because he was still enjoying the aftermath of our simultaneous orgasms. But he didn’t say anything or try to push me off. He just lay there, his eyes going blank and his features loosening to the point that I saw no emotion whatsoever. I was tempted to kiss him to see if I could bring him back to me, but I was too afraid I’d find out what kissing Seth and having him not kiss me back would feel like so I didn’t do it. Instead, I carefully lifted myself off of him. My cock slipped free of his body and I nearly swallowed my tongue when I watched a line of my semen drip out of him a second later. I wanted so badly to lean down and clean him up with my tongue just so I could share the proof of what he’d done to me with him, but I knew he wanted nothing more to do with me at that point. It was written in the way he held himself.
He may have wanted what had happened between us but that didn’t mean he wasn’t regretting it too. I hadn’t really believed making love to him would change anything, but a tiny part of me had hoped he’d hear the words I couldn’t say.
I tucked myself back into my pants and then reached for Seth to pull him upright but he pulled away from me the second I made contact with him. “Don’t,” was all he said. He ignored the semen running down his inner thigh and bent to yanks his pants up. He turned to face me but didn’t look up. “You proved your point,” he muttered before lifting his eyes. “But it doesn’t change anything. We’re done.”
And with that, Seth was the one to walk away this time.
Chapter 14
Seth
Bullet tuggingon the leash I was holding was what made me realize I was no longer alone. I glanced over my shoulder and cursed the shadow of disappointment that went through me at the sight of Hawke walking towards me.
In the week since I’d asked Ronan to leave, I’d spent a lot of time in this same spot – the old, weathered log on the beach at the base of the bluff my house sat on. I’d made the excuse that Bullet needed the fresh air as he recovered from his injury, but it was just another lie among many that I’d told myself. Like that I didn’t miss Ronan. Or that I didn’t have dreams about how right it felt to have him inside of me and that I didn’t ache to feel his warm body pressed against mine. And that I didn’t wonder if it was him I sensed watching me throughout the day.
I’d been surprised when Ronan actually left but also relieved. I’d always believed I’d take any piece of Ronan I could get but now that I’d had just that, it wasn’t enough. It would never be enough.
