I blew out a heavy breath, knowing there was a good chance I just might regret it.
Seventeen
Violet
We had been in thestore long enough that I shouldn’t have still been embarrassed, but every time Bella or Kensy held up a piece of sexy lingerie, I couldn’t help but blush.
“This would look hot on you,” Bella said, lifting the black— whatever-the-hell-it-was—thing in front of her and looking at me.
“I don’t even know what that is,” I admitted, tugging my lower lip between my teeth as she held it against her body.
“It’s basically a bodysuit with crotchless panties,” Bella explained, spreading the fabric with her fingers to show me.
“Umm...yeah.I don’t know where I would ever wear that,” I replied with a nervous laugh.
“It doesn’t matterwhereyou wear it,” Kensy said with a sing-song tone as she held up two other pieces of lingerie.“It matterswhoyou wear it for.From what you’ve told us, I can guarantee that these will drive them out of their minds.”
On the way to the store, I talked to them about everything that had happened between the guys and me.They gasped when I told them about me making the first move and kissing Enzo, and giggled when I told them about the whole towel incident with Asher.It was nice being able to be myself and talk to them about what I was feeling, especially since I hadn’t been able to wrap my head around it myself.I knew that I wanted to cross that line with Asher and Enzo, but felt limited by my past and the nervous girl I used to be.Not only that, but both guys seemed quite rigid about allowing me to do anything if they thought that I might regret it.While I understood where they were coming from and admired the amount of respect they showed me, that didn’t quell the ache I felt every time I was around them.
“I could walk around the house in any of those, and they still wouldn’t touch me,” I said, pulling my face to the side in disappointment as I put my hands on my hips.
Bella looked sad for me as she put her lingerie back on the rack, but Kensy had a look of determination that I hoped to have myself one day.I hadn’t known her long, but she struck me as the kind of person who didn’t stop trying until she got what she wanted.I wanted to be her someday.
“Baby steps, my friend, baby steps,” Kensy said as she looped her arm through mine and led me to the dressing room.
I tried on several outfits, surprised when I didn’t feel like I would die letting Kensy and Bella see me in them.That had to be a step in the right direction, though I didn’t try on anything too revealing.But it was still a huge step for me, given that I had never purchased lingerie like this before.Sure, I’d worn matching bras and panties for Jared before, mainly for our anniversary or his birthday, but never anything likethis.
“What do you think?”I asked both of them as I stood in front of the full-length mirror, as we huddled in the small area outside the dressing rooms.“Should I get this one, or the red one?”
I ran my hand down the soft black fabric and felt a shiver run through me at the thought of it being one of the guys touching me instead.I immediately tried to think of something else before the girls noticed the blush flushing my cheeks.
“I vote for both,” Bella said with a proud smile.“They are buy two get one free, though.You’d still have one more you could get.Maybe that pink one you liked?”
“Is the pink toonicethough?”I asked, scrunching my face at the thought.“I don’t want tolooklike a good girl.”
“Pink can be good or bad.Jones loves when I wea—” Bella started before Kensy shook her head and stopped her.
