Jana: How’s Reb?
Kaia: Evasion doesn’t help, but I get the message. Rebel is Rebel. Beautiful and sassy.
Jana thought about Diesel’s birthday party, when Rebel had been the center of attention among her brothers and cousins.Kaia.
Jana didn’t know if Rebel’s confidence grew as she got older or if she’d been born that way.
Jana: She is both. I wish I could be like her.
Kaia: She’s one of a kind. Besides, if you’re happy in your own skin, you wouldn’t mind being you.
Jana: I guess.
Kaia: I know.
She didn’t really know who she was. She enjoyed the attention she’d gotten from Diesel, Torrin, and Narci because it madeDieselnoticeher. She liked how Kaia made her laugh and worried about her. Most of the time, though, she didn’t like herself. She’d been looking forward to being Rebel’s big sister, but Rebel didn’t need her, and protected Jana from everyone. Although she thought Rebel was a little harsh with Diesel most of the time, she still stood up to him on Jana’s behalf.
Jana: Are you having fun?
Kaia: A lot. The more time I’ve spent with Rebel these past couple of days, the more I realize how much I really like her. I’m so scared she’ll find out about Saturday night…I fucked up, Jana.
Jana: She’s young. She must understand that men have needs. I have sex with Diesel, and I know he looks at other women.
Kaia: Yeah, if only.
Jana: ?
Kaia: Nvrmind.
Jana: Are you still coming to the volleyballgame Saturday?
Kaia: That depends on if Rebel’s going.
Jana: She said she was. You already accepted. B4 she did.
Kaia: Then I guess I will be there.
Jana: Remember how you told me you could get weed for me?
Kaia: I was halfway joking, but I remember.
Jana: I don’t have money, but I’m willing to pay you another way. Even better if you can get me coke. I need something. I’ll do whatever you want.
Kaia: Uh, I thought you were a recovered addict. Or recovering? Or…?
Jana: I’ve never been to rehab. Please don’t tell anyone. Diesel doesn’t want anyone to know.
Kaia: That motherfucker is playing with fire.
Jana: He’s protecting me.
Kaia: Not if your addiction is this bad. You just offered to fuck me for a blunt. I don’t have a pipeline to more than that. I won’t even get into the coke. Be careful. Dealers might take pussy from you and then still target you because you haven’t given them cash.
Jana: I suck good cock, especially for drugs. They may beat me but they’ve never come after me afterwards.
Kaia: WTF? Are you fucking serious? Read what you just wrote to me. Better yet, TELL Diesel you want drugs. If he cares about you, he’ll get you help.
Jana: He does. He let me do coke Saturday night.
