I stare down at him, his head pressed into the mud, his eyes closed as if ready to nap. My eyes slide down to where our bodies connect, and my monster sighs in relief.
Pulling out slowly, I see the white of my cum lining his puffy red rim, and my chest expands.
“Any time you want to chase me, you can,” he says as I watch my release drip from him. He makes no effort to move, and I make no effort to stand. We just stay like this until he starts to shiver. That’s what gets me moving. Tucking myself back into my pants, I stand up on shaking legs, hauling him up against me. He lists against my chest, his hand moving up to clutch at my heart.
A symbolic movement, I think, but one I don’t have time to analyze.
“Let’s get you home and cleaned up,” I say, and he blinks up at me. My eyes move to his lips, and he sighs.
“You going to stay with me or will you run off?”
I touch his bottom lip, red and swollen from biting it. “I think I’ll stay. What about you?”
“We’ll see.”
17
WYLDER
My monster is caged once again. Turns out that letting him free to chase Neo through the woods satisfies like nothing else has ever has.
Who knew I needed that?
Neo, apparently.
I even manage to get some sleep after making sure we’re both wiped clean of dirt. I was too tired to bother with a shower, knowing that in the morning, I can request fresh sheets from Dotty.
And with Neo back in my bed, tucked up against me, I go out like a light. He’s safe. He’s with me. Everything is okay.
It’s only when I open my eyes the next morning and see the state of my room that I realize everything is very muchnotokay.
“Fuck,” I rasp, my voice thick with sleep. “Dotty’s going to kill me. I mean, she might literally bury me in the backyard.”
Neo yawns from where he’s using my chest as a pillow. “No way would she do that. She adores you. We can fix it.”
“She doesn’t, and it’s past fixing.” My lips pinch as I take in the broken furniture and the dents in the wall. What the fuck was I thinking?
It’s simple. I wasn’t. For the first time in my life, I lost control.
It was Neo who brought me back.
He props his chin on my chest, blinking up at me owlishly. “So we go shopping and get new shit. You’re richer than Croesus and have appalling taste in home decor. If you ask me, you’re long past due to redecorate. This just gives us a good excuse.”
I tug at his hair fondly. “Brat. Are you saying you have better taste than me?”
“Fuck yes, I am. I have excellent taste, unlike you.”
“I have good taste.”
Neo makes a show of looking around the room comically. “Where?”
I tug his hair again until his attention returns to me. “I chose you, didn’t I?”
His jaw drops at that. “Excuse me?”
“You’re the one in my bed right now,” I say, my spare hand sliding down his body to palm his ass. The ass I fucked so thoroughly last night. It makes me shudder slightly thinking about it. Who knew I’d enjoy fucking a man? Especially when it’s Neo, someone I don’t have to behave differently with.
Where I don’t have to cage the monster.
