Me
I know what you mean. I'm so wet for you.
Duncan
Ah, baby, I think I'll be coming to DC soon. I need you. Urgh.
I smile and switch my phone to airplane mode. I lay my head back against the headrest and think about what I'm doing. I hope he's not in danger from me. This feeling of finally being alive is new and I like it. I know that I'll need to figure out my life.
Greg has been helping me for years and here's another favor I'll need to ask from him. I'll need to make sure Derek doesn't try to force the issue about moving in again. When he moved in the last time, he scared all guys away. I won't have him scaring Duncan away, although Duncan might have a problem with him staying with me. I'll need to explain soon.
Duncan told me how he'd be heading to France to work for a diplomat there. We didn't discuss very personal facts, but I'm sure we will soon enough.
I can't and won't tell him about my stalker. I need to determine if there really are two or just one playing a sick game with me. I need to take care of this situation before it hurts people I care about. Care? Do I care for Duncan already? If I did, wouldn't I open myself up completely to him? I keep so many details about my life to myself, very few people know me completely. Greg and Derek do. Ana knows a lot but not all of it. James knows more than Ana but...wow! I think about it carefully, not even Greg and Derek know me completely. Not even the one man I tell a lot to knows everything. Can I let Duncan be that person?
I rub my wrist and think about my nightmares. I need to get those under control again. When I woke in Duncan’s room the other night it was from a nightmare, and this morning was too. I'm going to have to keep an eye on them. If they get too bad, I'll have to call him again.
I need to change my thoughts before it's too late. I can't go down that rabbit hole. I grab my phone, pull up the music app, and plug in my headphones. The rock music is like a balm to my soul. I close my eyes and rest until we land.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
MAYA
Icame home to a new flower delivery, adder’s tongue, which Derek says means jealousy. Since then, every day, I get a dozen crimson roses along with my usual arrival of hyacinths. They're forwarded to the hospital every time. I don't want them here. I'm being followed most days, but as soon as someone tries to intercept whoever it is, they take off. Derek wants to move in and I keep telling him no.
It's been over a week since I left London. Duncan and I talk and text when we can. I've been trying to figure a way to head to London for a quick weekend or even Paris where he is. Duncan is guarding a diplomat's daughter; he complains that she's a handful.
Tonight I'm getting ready for dinner with James when my phone beeps with an incoming message.
Duncan
Baby, I miss you so much. Sorry I couldn't text sooner, had to work. Just got to my room. Can you call?
Me
Can't. Your father is waiting for me at Georgia Brown's for dinner.
Duncan
Lucky man.
Me
I miss you too.
Duncan
Have you been made primary permanently yet?
Me
Yep. My partner and I are going to celebrate after dinner tonight.
Duncan
Why him? Why not some girlfriends?
Me
