I stared at her like I wanted to argue, but the truth was, I ain’t even have time to feel no type of way, ‘cause Toni was already climbin’ on top of me like she had somewhere to be. She ain’t ease into nothin’. She didn’t take her time. She was on go the second she got where she wanted to be, and I had to bite my lip and put my head back ‘cause Toni was not playin’ with me tonight.
When I looked up at her, she had that look in her eyes that was real vulnerable and real hungry at the same time, like she needed this dick, like it was the only thing in the world that made her feel like herself right now. Her hands was pressed on my chest, and she was movin’ with purpose, breathin’ all shaky with her eyes half closed.
“Damn,” I groaned, grippin’ her waist as she started soakin’ me up like she been thinkin’ about this all day.
“Baby…” she said in that weak tone that always used to make me feel like I was the one in control.
Now it was just her warnin’ me.
“What’s wrong?” I asked, reachin’ up to cup her titties tryna keep her grounded even though she was already floatin’.
“I’m about to cum,” she grunted, sittin’ down harder and puttin’ all her weight into it like she was tryna take my soul out my body.
I blinked up at her. “You for real?”
“Yesss,” she cried, and then she started movin’ even faster, like she had to prove it to me.
I ain’t gon’ lie, my pride was a lil’ offended and my body was stressed, ‘cause my dick hadn’t even been in Toni a good five minutes and she was already on ten. This whole time we been together, even before the baby, she ain’t never came this fast, and now here she was actin’ like she was tryna break me in half.
She was ridin’ so hard her titties was bouncin’ crazy, her hair was everywhere, her face scrunched up, and I’m layin’ here like, damn, is this my wife or is this a demon?
Then I looked at her stomach and noticed the baby shiftin’ again, and that’s when my mind snapped back to reality. I placed both hands on her belly like I could calm my child down through touch, ‘cause in my head it made sense. If Toni was actin’ possessed, then I needed to at least keep My’Love from catchin’ the worst of it.
“Toni…” I tried, keepin’ my voice calm.
She wasn’t hearin’ shit, but throwin’ her head back and goin’ crazier.
“Toni, baby…” I tried again.
“What, Kay’Lo?” she snapped, like I was botherin’ her.
“The baby, she…” I started, and I was only tryna help.
“Ugh. Just shut up and let me nut,” she cried, and I swear I never felt so disrespected and taken advantage of in my life.
I blinked, then I looked down at her belly again like, ‘you hearin’ your mama, My’Love?’
I couldn’t do nothin’ but lay here and take it, ‘cause Toni was locked in. Finally, she came down on me with that whole body shakin’, moanin’, cryin’ type release like she had been holdin’ it in for days.
I ain’t gon’ lie, I felt bad for me and My’Love, ‘cause Toni just wasn’t givin’ a damn about nobody in that moment but herself.
When she finally came down from the nut, she leaned to the side and tilted her head back like she was wore out, and I just laid there starin’ at the ceilin’ like I had just been robbed. My body was still catchin’ up, but my ego was already in the grave.
My hand stayed on her belly though, rubbin’ gentle, tryna guide the baby back toward the middle like I knew what I was doin’, ‘cause I couldn’t shake the thought of My’Love in there gettin’ tossed around while Toni was out here goin’ crazy.
Toni put her hand on the side of her stomach and sighed. “Kay’Lo, calm the hell down. She fine.”
I stared at her for a second, then gave a small nod like, ‘a’ight, you got it.’
Before I could say more, she got off me slow, strugglin’ a lil’, then rolled over with her back turned like she ain’t just used me up and threw me to the side.
All I could do was lay here, silent, feelin’ like I had just got taken advantage of in my own damn bed.
A few seconds passed, then Toni’s voice came again, softer now like she ain’t just told me to shut up.
“Kay’Lo, baby?”
“What?” I answered, still lookin’ straight ahead.
