“Cashmere.”
I pull my head back slightly. “The fuck are you asking, man?”
“How long have I known you?” He leans back in his chair, stroking his beard. “Two years? Three?”
“Something like that.”
“Not once have I seen you get twisted over someone. Hell, I thought you were celibate for a while.”
I snort. “No.”
“But this is different.He’sdifferent, yes?”
I half shrug. “Not sure where you’re going with this.”
“What will you do if you fall in love? Is that clear enough?”
“Love?” I practically spit the word. “Come on, friend. That’s not for people like us.”
“Oh, is there a rule book I missed?”
“I don’t think…” I pause as a million thoughts flood my brain. “What wouldyoudo if you fell in love?”
“Fuck if I know.” He grins at me. “I’m not saying you need to figure it out right now, but I wanted you to at least see it could be a possibility.” Wraith leans across the table toward me. “I know what this life is as much as you do. It’s not something you can tell everyone about or talk about with your boyfriend’s parents during the holidays. It’s unconventional, and I get that.”
“To put it mildly.”
“But sometimes…” A soft smile dances on his handsome face. “Sometimes I think about how it would feel to meet someone who makes you put all those impossible things aside and try anyway. There’s a chance that’s where you find yourself now,bror.”
I hadn’t considered what happens after I make him mine. I honestly didn’t know how long it would take, but tonight will change everything. By morning, he’ll never be without me again. Tonight he learns the full depth of my fascination with him.
“What does love even feel like?” I ask softly. “How would you know that’s what you feel?”
Wraith shakes his head. “I’m told you just know. So maybe you just do.”
“Yeah, maybe you just do.”
It doesn’t really matter to me whether I fall in love or not. I don’t know how love could be any different from the overwhelming need to keep him close to me, to touch him, to worship him. As long as he’s close, I don’t see a problem. If he needs declarations of love, I’ll figure it out.
All that matters is that he doesn’t leave. Ever.
CHAPTER 16
Colson
Walkingup the stairs in the mansion feels different this time. I didn’t know what to expect being in Specter’s presence at first, but I do now and it’s got me all mixed up. Do I want to have sex with him? Who wouldn’t? Do I think this is going to be a benign experience on any level? Not even a little bit.
And I don’t know what to do with that.
Wraith left us when we walked into the house, so it’s just the two of us. It felt good to dance tonight, to be adored on the stage, and to feel as safe as I did before I was attacked. At least my stalker is smart enough to stay away from Segreto. I wonder if he knows I’m with Specter now. He must if he’s been following me. He at least knows I’m not at my apartment.
“How much money do you make on a night like tonight?” Specter asks from behind me.
“On a weeknight, I can get between two and five hundred. It goes up a lot on the weekends and during special times of the year.”
“Special times? Like what?”
“Holidays, vacations, positive events like a sports victory. Men like to throw money around when they’re out of their normal routine.”
