He’s just so sweet, and I can tell he’s over the moon to be among friends. It’s all he’s wanted since long before he even came here.
Felix got used to being alone, and he certainly used it to his advantage with his killing. But I don’t believe he’s ever despisedanythingmore than being alone. He wants human connection, and not just so that he can murder everyone around him. He’s always been desperate for companionship. Now more than ever, I’m realizing how much I hate that it’s had to be just me and him for so long.
When Joy started bringing him up to general population to talk to Dash on the phone, and he got to spend even just a few minutes with guys like Luthor and Ren, it made a noticeable difference in him. He had a spring in his step, and he wasn’t as restless.
I want more of that for him. In all honesty, that was my biggest reason for joining Velle’s side. Of course, I feel likeThe Ivory needs to answer for what he’s done, but I wasn’t exaggerating when I told Velle that this island is special.
I’ve never been able to shake that vision I had… The night I met Manuel in the atrium, after my first time bringing Felix into the mansion with me.
I imagined cuddling up with him under the stars, listening to eighties music and eating Chinese food. Touching and kissing, and laughing in this gorgeous place.
I’m not saying I want to be trapped here forever… But I came back for a reason. Because thereissomething about this island that feels like… home.
Like it couldbea home, if it weren’t held in chains itself.
“I’ll get Dash out,” Felix says. “And Byron, and Trevel, and Simon. I won’t leave until I know they’re safe. You have my word.”
“Thank you,” Kemper breathes graciously, though his gaze is anxious when it hits Joy and Rook. “You guys will probably need to cover me.”
Joy nods, and Rook says, “I’ll go get eyes on the situation. Figure out which way’s clear.”
“I’m coming with you.” Joy follows him out.
I peek at Felix, just reveling in being back with him. Hating that we need to separate again, but knowing with absolute certainty we’ll be back together again soon.
Nothing can keep us apart.
“I can’t wait to Netflix and chill with you.” I hold him to me by his waist. “When all this is over.”
His body shudders with a tiny chuckle. “You can just say you wanna make out and rub our dicks together.”
I hum, grinning. But then I remember that we’re not alone and glance at Kemper. He’s smirking, trying to act like he’s not paying attention to us, though it’s a pretty confined area. And it’samazing to me… Howrightit feels to be with Felix, out in the open. In front of people.
I want more of this. I want to be able to give him what he wants. A love he can show off to his friends. To bring our chaos into the regular world and dress it up like it’s normal, even though we both know it’s not.
I want to give him every single thing his black heart desires.
“Dash talks about you a lot, you know?” Kemper offers Felix a small smile.
Naturally, he lights up. “Yea?”
Kemper nods. “You, Luthor, Ren, Byron… He’s really missed you guys a lot. That’s most of why we’re here.”
“I really hope Luthor and Ren are okay,” Felix mutters. “It’s weird that I haven’t seen them at all since everything happened…”
My spine stiffens.
Shit… Luthor and Ren.
Didn’t The Ivory say something about them taking a boat during the storm and… sailing off?
“Coming back was probably pretty stupid,” Kemper’s voice distracts me, and I find that he’s speaking directly to me with this sentiment. “But I just… I wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if I’d stopped him from coming to help, ya know? Wanting to protect him and keep him in a bubble isn’t right…”
I’m relating to what he’s saying on a deep level right now. It’s more or less exactly how I feel about Felix.
Coming back was never a choice for me. But I have one now…
Stop coddling him.
