But can I be an asshole to a lonely woman? A stranger who needed to feel beautiful and loved? No.
My mom always said kindness is the easiest gift to give. And maybe that makes me a shitty person, so neck-deep in lies while trying to do the right thing.
Or maybe it was Fate. Trying to give me my soulmate.
“I didn’tnotlike her,” I answer truthfully. “I cared for her, like I did my closest fans. I didn’t want to hurt her. I wanted to please her. And the truth is, I was lonely too. It was myonlydate. I was honest when I said it’s just been me and my fist for years, because it’s…”
Careful.
Alena can’t know this part. The beach rescue. Her bully. Why you’ve watched her for so long from afar.
“It’s what?” She searches my gaze, and I fear she can see my truth.
How my heart’s pounding. How there’s a word, and I know what it means because of her.
“It’s way more than Fate, Alena. It’s—” I lick my lips. They’re way too smart to be stupid and say it now.
“It’s what?” Her fists fly to her waist. “What’s more powerful than Fate?”
The beast inside me stirs. He doesn’t like denying what’s right in front of him and his.
“It’s the word that’s too soon to say.” But the man in me reaches for her cheek. “It’s the word that’ll scare you and make you run because you like being free. You like being in control. You like being alone, and?—”
“But Idon’tlike being alone.” Her eyes swim with sudden tears. “I’ve been alone my whole life. I mean…” One falls. “I’ve never had a man in my life. Not one who made me feel sexy like…” Another falls. “Like LuvPounder… I mean… likeyou. You made me feel that way, and you never even saw me. You didn’t know I look like…” She gestures to her banging body. “Like this.”
I glance down at her full hips and thick thighs in those wet booty shorts. “Like fucking hot as shit?”
She shakes her head. “That’s not how I felt. Not until I met you. I mean, LuvPounder, who’s really you, and… and…” she stammers, “and, so what’s the truth?”
I cup her cheeks and anchor to her eyes; she’s all I need to know.
“You’re fucking beautiful, Alena Allen. That’s the truth. I did see you. Idosee you. I feel like I’ve known you my whole life.” I nuzzle my forehead to hers. “What was your news tonight?”
“Goodbye.” She blinks. “I’d never cheat on you. I meanyou,Loch. I want a real chance together. But I can’t hurt someone, and LuvPounder was sweet to me, and I wanted to say goodbye, and…” She shakes her head. “And it was you, so I guess… Hello?”
I risk a soft kiss, barely greeting her lips with the real me.
The man no one owns but her.
She takes my kiss, but I have to know. These are dickhead questions, but I’m flawed, possessive, and falling even harder for her like that’s possible. “Why were you online searching for men? How did you find me?”
“My best friend, Vale.” She sighs over my lips. “She’s getting her PhD in Sexuality Studies and told me about OnlyFans and this man who…” She blushes.It’s so adorable, I’m gonna have to taste her tonight.“This man with a really big pretty penis who comes really hard.”
Now, I fucking blush. “I have a pretty penis?”
She nods. “You know that glass triangle at the Louvre Museum in Paris?”
“Yeah.”
“Your hard penis should be at its center, all lit up like the Eiffel Tower when it comes.” Her teeth grab her bottom lip. “Can you really shoot it in your mouth?”
“I can for you.”Not lying.“Is that why you stayed with me? That’s your kink? Men tasting their cum?”
Goddamn, my dick needs to stand down. I’m wooing here.
“I mean…” She tugs on the hem of her wet white tank top.Not helping.“It became my kink. You became my kink. I didn’t want a real man. I didn’t trust them. I only wanted you. Until I met…you. God.” She huffs gratefully. “ThisisFate.”
My heart bursts.Fuck, when does this falling feeling stop?When do you finally land in love?“You only felt safe online with me?”
