‘But …’
‘I like it as little as you, but our hands are tied. If it went to justice, it would end in trial by combat. You’ve seen Guy’s arm. Every marcher lord is bred from the cradle to fight. The odds are too close to load them in de Lacey’s favour. Perhaps I’ll just stick a knife in his ribs on a dark night. My Welsh blood permits me such lapses of honour.’
‘You’ll do no such thing!’ Alicia’s eyes widened in fear as she wiped her fingers on the edge of one of the swaddling bands. ‘He is Arnulf’s friend and de Belleme’s vassal. Robert would impale you on a stake at the Shrewsbury crossroads and leave you there until your flesh rotted off it!’
He flashed her a brief, distorted smile. It was at moments like this that he realised the true depth of his loss. Christen had been one of four within the keep to succumb to the sweating sickness. It came, it claimed haphazardly and it moved on. Even now, two years later, the wounds were unhealed and inadvertently Alicia was laying them open again, reminding him of what he no longer had.
He was drawn from his introspection by the awareness that she was trembling. ‘What’s the matter? I was jesting, I swear it.’
‘You would not jest if you had lived beneath Maurice’s code of cruelty,’ she said bitterly. ‘You have not had to sit at meatwith Robert de Belleme and Walter de Lacey when they have come red-handed from torturing some poor wretch out of his life and wonder if you or your daughter might be their next victim!’ Abruptly she pressed the end of the swaddling band against his ribs. ‘Hold this,’ she commanded.
‘Alicia …’
She reached around him. He felt the warmth emanating from her body and smelled the drifting scent of attar of roses. He let go of the bandage, slipped his arm around her waist and kissed her.
He felt her quiver. She hesitated as if on a brink, and then she made a soft sound in her throat. Her lips parted beneath his and her arms circled his neck, the bandage falling to the floor at their feet.
As impulse gave way to a deeper need, Miles forgot that he had been going to give her detailed reassurances about himself, Guyon and Robert de Belleme, forgot everything but the quickening beat of his blood responding to the feel and taste of her – like fresh water after a long drought.
Alicia gasped and pressed against him as he unwound her braids and threaded his fingers through the thick black twists of her hair. He took his time, kissing her face and nuzzling her throat before claiming her lips again. He ran one hand lightly up her ribcage, found the soft curve of her breast and lightly stroked.
‘Tell your maid to keep watch so we are not disturbed,’ he muttered hoarsely against her temple.
She heard his words through a haze of sensual delight, and it took a moment for them to reach her brain, but when they did the effect was as immediate as a deluge of frozen water. The thought of Agnes listening outside while she coupled with a man she barely knew, the notion of instructing the woman with her hair all unbound and her lips swollen by kisses, the memory of atime almost seventeen years ago when she had done just that … The images coagulated and all the magic was lost. She removed her arms from around his neck, averted her mouth from his kiss and pushed him away.
‘I am not a whore,’ she said flatly.
‘What?’ He sought her blindly for a moment and then his eyes opened and slowly refocused. ‘Alicia …’
‘If you want a woman to tumble, there are plenty of serving girls accustomed to Maurice’s ways who would relieve your need.’ Gathering her hair, she began clumsily to rebraid it.
‘I don’t want another woman, I want you.’ His hand extended in supplication, he took a step towards her. Alicia backed away.
‘You would make a whore of me in my own household before my servants and vassals!’
‘Of course not! Why do you think I told you to speak to your maid?’
‘What would you have me say to her?’
‘Anything. That we wish to discuss a private matter concerned with the wedding or dowry.’
‘With my hair all unbound?’
Miles turned away with an oath and scraped his fingers through his hair. ‘You led me to believe you were willing … more than willing.’
Alicia worked frantically at her braids. There was no answer to that, for she had indeed been eager to couple with him until brought abruptly to common sense, and her body still tingled with thwarted desire. ‘You took advantage!’ she said accusingly, and suddenly her throat was tight and her chest heaving.
‘Yes,’ he snapped. ‘Blame me, because you dare not blame yourself!’
Alicia began to cry, deep-rooted sobs that shook her body from head to toe.
‘God’s sweet life, don’t …’ Miles started towards her, then hesitated.
Cadi whined and wagged her tail as Guyon swished through the curtain, a roll of parchment in his hand. His grim expression changed on the instant to comical, slack-jawed amazement. ‘I’m sorry, I did not realise …’
‘There is nothing to realise!’ Alicia responded through her tears and, gathering her skirts, pushed blindly past him and out of the room.
Guyon stared at the curtain as it fell, then back at his sire.
