“There is nothing like you working yourself on my cock. There is nothing I love more than seeing your face when I come.” His words trailed over me, even more painful than his gentle touch. I whined, wishing I could take more of him.
He slipped his thumb into my mouth alongside his cock, and I swallowed that too.
“You are so wonderful. So well suited for my needs. I do not deserve you, but I cannot regret that you have come to me. I will never regret that. You are mine.”
Then he grabbed hold of my hair, his fingers pulling too tightly and I let myself fall lax as he thrust up into my mouth, drawing my head back with his own strength and slamming against the back of my throat over and over.
My mind slowly went blank, everything slipping away. With Tallu taking hold of me, I didn’t need to worry about the mess we found ourselves in. I didn’t need to feel anything about the men and women who were going to die for us, for me, for the false promise of uniting the continent.
Tallu tugged my hair, and I pulled back, his cock falling free of my mouth. Using my long hair, he drew me up until I was lying on top of him. Then he kissed my bruised lips, soothing my aching throat with gentle touches, carding his fingers through my hair as though I was the most wondrous thing.
He was still hard, I could feel his wet cock dragging up my stomach. Pulling back, I yanked off as much of my clothing as I could, stopping only when his hands caught hold of mine.
“You always treat yourself too carelessly. You treat yourself as though you are nothing when you need to understand”—Tallu undid the laces I had been struggling with, his russet gazefixed on me as, suddenly, I was naked on his lap—“you are everything. There is nothing without you. The sun would go out, the tides would stop if a single thing happened to you.”
“A single thing?” I pushed my cock against his, fisting both of them in my hand. Underneath me, he shuddered, his body twitching. “I can think of several things that I wouldn’t mind happening to me.”
“If there is a choice between your life and mine—” Tallu gazed at me fiercely and I covered his mouth with mine, kissing the words out of him, desperate not to hear them, because I knew I could only echo them back to him.
If there was a choice between saving Tallu and saving myself, that was no choice at all.
He grabbed hold of my hair, pulling my head back as he pressed kisses against my throat. “You didn’t let me finish.”
“Oh, I think we are both pretty close to finishing.” I thrust up into my hands, and he shuddered again, shivering, but I needed more than that.
Who knew the next time we were going to have a moment to ourselves?
Tallu let go of my hair, reaching desperately for something and emerging with a small tin of oil. He slicked himself up, then reached for me, but I didn’t let him.
Instead, I positioned him at my entrance and pressed down, using my weight to open myself, yielding to the thick length of his cock.
He was panting, eyes fixed on my face, and I grinned down at him before lifting myself on shaking thighs and settling even more firmly on his length. I managed a few more before he growled, flipping us over, nearly dropping me off the edge of the bed before he got me firmly beneath him and drove into me.
Neither one of us was going to last long, but the expression on his face nearly sent me over the edge. He leaned down, kissing mylips, desperately soft, as though trying to draw my very heart out from inside my chest.
“Say that you won’t kill yourself to save my life,” Tallu commanded.
His hips hit mine brutally and my mouth fell open. “I won’t lie to you.”
“Then don’t. Tell me.”
“We arebothgoing to live.” I leaned up, whispering it in his ear, my arms wrapped around his back as he thrust into me, my cock trapped between us. “Do you hear me? We arebothgoing to live.”
Tallu came, shuddering so hard that I had to wrap my arms and legs around him to hold him with me. I felt my hard length trapped between us, and then Tallu was pulling out, leaving me barren and yearning, only then his mouth was on my cock, swallowing me down.
I came in that hot mouth, wanting to fill him up as he had just filled me. He swallowed, continuing to swallow when I was spent, licking me clean and pressing kisses to my hips before I yanked him up.
“Tallu,” I whispered.
We slept, dozing as the sounds of too many people moving around the ship echoed in the halls. I wasn’t sure what time it was when I woke, but I found him looking at me, his hand pressed to my chest.
“Why do you think he brought her?” I asked.
“Because he loves Sagam,” Tallu said, not even pretending to mistake what I was talking about. “Because war envelops the Imperium, and if Sagam loses his sisters, then Asahi might lose Sagam.”
“But Sagam didn’t fetch her himself,” I pointed out.
“Sometimes we don’t dare take the thing we most desperately want,” Tallu said. He raised his hand, cupping my cheek. “It is too dangerous to admit what our true desires are.”
