TheBigO: I lost my mom almost fifteen years ago. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone.
I was still in high school when she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
She managed to make it until a year after I graduated.
Barely a legal adult, I was forced to grow up fast considering my father died before I was even old enough to know him.
Well, it’s time to head back inside, my ass is getting cold.
Maybe I’ll start packing for Pendleton? It’s only a week away.
I’m just hanging up my Carhartt and Stetson when my phone dings with another text.
RacingQueen: It’s been almost thirteen since my mom died. Sometimes I forget what her voice sounded like. That’s when I started reading…to get away.
Damn, girl.
She sounds like she’s had a rough time too. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone.
TheBigO: Well, I’d say books are a lot safer than many alternatives. Lucky for me that you did.
RacingQueen: I agree. I could have turned into a supervillain and taken over the world!
TheBigO: Careful, I’m well versed in spy novels and would know how to infiltrate your secret lair.
RacingQueen: I double dog dare you, Biggie. Find the weakness.
My stupid smiley face looks ridiculous, but feels appropriate.
Wait. My own mouth mimics the emoji.
What the hell?
I shouldn’t be grinning this much.
It’s just fiction, right?
Our little secret
Sophia
Freezing rain runs downthe back of my neck, soaking into my sweatshirt under my jacket.
But I don’t move. All I can do is stare at the gravestones.
My nails dig into my palms in a failing effort to stave off the tears that threaten to join the rivulets pouring down my cheeks.
Grandma and Grandpa, forever lying together atop this hilltop view.
I wonder if I’ll be able to see the markers from my bedroom once it’s fixed? Maybe it will carry a little comfort knowing they’re watching over the ranch from up here.
God, I hate this so fucking much.
They should have never died. There shouldn’t have been a fire.
Someonesetit, and we’re all suffering the loss from it.
Dad thinks it’s all tied to the rest of the shit that’s happened.
