Charlotte looks lost for a second and I sigh. "He called me a lousy lay."
Her face falls at the words, anger igniting in her blue eyes. "Dick." She thinks for a second. "What about all those magazines, they have all the articles in them. The tips-"
I shake my head, dropping my chin in my hands. "No, it's not the same, I want just one book, that tells me exactly what I want to know when I want to know it, like magic."
She grins at me words. "That's asking for a lot, Ivy." Charlie says softly, her dark hair falling around her face is soft waves. Her eyes are wide, but they twinkle with mirth.
I huff, leaning forward on my elbows, "I know." I chew my lip. "What if I finally get a boyfriend and I don't know how to do anything and they break up with me, or-" I look to Charlie. "I don't want to be insecure about sex; I want to know what I'm doing."
"You can't let Dain's stupid opinion get to you; he's just some guy."
"Yeah, some guy who called me a lousy lay and what if he's right?" I raise an eyebrow. "You don't get it Charlie; you've had boyfriends and done things. You've got experience."
"I still haven't had sex." she adds on, and I know she's trying to help me but-
"Yeah, but you get asked out like. . . once a week."
She rolls her eyes playfully, sending me a glare. "That's an exaggeration."
I huff, "You know what I mean." God, I'm throwing the worst pity party right now. "I've never been asked out. Guys don't look at me like that. I'm starting to think I'm undesirable."
"Ivy," Charlotte starts, "Guys are always staring at you, you just never notice it."
"Then why don't they ask me out? I'm twenty-one and never had a boyfriend. I just lost my virginity this morning to the first guy that gave me a lick of attention." My head falls back as realization hits me. "And he was an asshole, and yet I just threw myself at him."
"You did not throw yourself at him." Charlotte says not harshly but enough to get my eyes on her. "He lied and played you. For two months, even I thought he was a good guy. You are not to blame for him being a dickhead and using you."
I chew my lip. "You know he practically admitted it was to get under Leon's skin?"
Charlie scowls. crossing her arms. "The first chance I get I'm ripping his dick off."
I huff a laugh and then say, "I know you haven't had sex yet, but you've done other things. I haven't got any and I don't want something as trivial as my experience to get in the way of a relationship."
If I ever get asked out again.
"You know how dating is these days; people sleep together before they've even formed a connection and I just... I don't know. I can't do that." I huff. I hate that I've let a guy's opinion of me make me insecure.
Especially Dain Chambers. What did I ever see in him?
We're silent for a second, both lost in our own thoughts before I see Charlotte sit up straighter. "I might have an idea."
I look to my best friend, raising a brow.
"What if you find someone who can help you?"
"I'm not following."
"Like a friends with benefits situation, and the benefits would be that he show you the ropes and tells you how to do things." She throws her arms up as if she's just come up with the best idea. "Who better to tell you how to please a guy than a guy?" She gives me a look, likeduh.
I nod, seeing the appeal. "How the hell would I even find someone willing to tell me that, what would they want in return?"
Charlie shrugs and slumps, "you could ask Justin?"
I blink, shocked. "Justin? As in Justin who plays on my brothers hockey team,thatJustin?"
Charlie nods, not seeing the issue. "He's a player, which means he won't want to settle down. And rumour has it he knows what he's doing, and he's slept witha lotof girls."
"If my brother found out he'd skin him alive."
