Eoin turned, saw her, and gave her a pleasant “my lady,” but he was too preoccupied to completely mask that her interruption was not a welcome one.
It was a look that a good wife would have read, made some excuse, and scurried away. Unfortunately for him, she was not a good wife—actually right now she didn’t feel like much of a wife at all—and the look only fueled her frustration, hurt, and anger.
She had left the only family she’d ever known behind three days ago, been “welcomed” into his with about as much enthusiasm as a leper, and he couldn’t spare her a few minutes?
“Is there something you need, Margaret?” Eoin asked.
“I should like to speak with you. Alone, if you will.”
“Can it wait? We were just about to ride out—”
“It’s important,” she said firmly, refusing to back down.
She had to find out why he was avoiding her, and that look she’d caught left her with no doubt that he was doing exactly that.
Eoin told his men he would be back in a few minutes and walked to his wife, ignoring the snide glance from Fin that said “I told you so.”
Just because she interrupted him didn’t make her demanding and needing attention, damn it.
Fin was lucky Eoin was talking to him at all, after what he’d said about their marriage.
“Why the hell did you marry her? The lass probably wasn’t even a virgin. I hope you checked for fresh cut marks when you saw the blood.”
Eoin had struck him as hard as he’d ever struck anyone in his life. He’d laid him flat with that one fist to the jaw and had his hands around his throat a minute later. “If you ever say anything like that again,” he’d sworn, “I’ll kill you.”
He meant it, too. Margaret was his wife, and Eoin wouldn’t allow any man to speak ill of her—even the man who was like a brother to him.
He just wished Fin hadn’t said what he’d said. Eoin hadn’t even thought about blood—or the absence of it. Damn Fin to hell. Just because there hadn’t been blood, it didn’t mean anything. It had been obvious that she’d been a maid.
Why was he even thinking about this?
Taking her arm, he led her through the trees to the edge of the river, where some of the lads were fetching buckets of fresh water for the camp.
He pointed to a low rock for her to sit on, but she shook her head and turned to face him.
“Is something wrong?” she asked.
“It’s nothing for you to be concerned about. One of the scouts discovered that a bridge has been washed out ahead of us. We are riding out to see what will be the best route for the carts.”
“That isn’t what I meant.” He hadn’t thought so but had hoped. “Are you upset with me for some reason?”
“Of course not.”
“Then why are you avoiding me?”
“I’m not avoiding you.” But even as he said it, he knew it was a lie. He had been avoiding her. Unconsciously maybe, but that wasn’t an excuse. The promise he’d made to Bruce didn’t sit well with him, and he regretted it. Even if it had been the only way to salvage the opportunity his kinsman was giving him.
The reaction from his family had been worse than he’d anticipated. The negotiations for a betrothal agreement with the Keiths had been much further along than Eoin realized, and his actions had impugned the clan’s honor and pride. His father had been humiliated and forced to apologize and make amends. But Eoin had ruined any chance he had of working with the great Marischal of Scotland and would probably do best to avoid crossing paths with Robert Keith in the future.
Eoin suspected that his father’s disappointment was worse because Eoin’s actions had been so unexpected. Unlike his two elder brothers, Eoin never did anything rash or unwise. He was calculated. Thoughtful.Smart.
But not this time. His father couldn’t believe he’d thrown away a bright future for a tumble with a lass. “She’ll hold you back,” he’d said, his words an eerie echo of Fin’s.
The words had seemed all too prophetic when his father told him Bruce was refusing now to consider Eoin for the secret guard. The earl wouldn’t risk a man so closely tied to the enemy—especially Dugald MacDowell. Losing the chance with Keith was bad enough, but the thought of missing out on a place in Bruce’s secret guard was unthinkable.
It had taken days of discussion—pleading—but eventually Bruce had relented. Only, however, after he’d exacted a promise from Eoin to tell Margaret nothing about what he was doing, where he was going, or what he was a part of. She would be kept completely in the dark about that part of his life.
He would have to lie to her.
