Jerusalem’s temples, she couldn’t even breathe right! All he had to do was stand next to her and the wild fluttering of her heart took over her lungs, making her breath quicken into short little gasps.
And heaven forbid he touch her! If he touched her, she would turn into a horrible soupy mess. All melty and hot, and unable to think straight.
She was too old to be acting like this. Surely these kind of feelings were the province of lovesick young girls, and not a woman of seven and twenty who was basically a nun?
Except there was no “basically” when it came to being a nun. He’d made her remember that she was a woman. A woman who was no longer young, but who knew exactly what she was going to do, until he’d come along and confused her with his no-nonsense, say-whatever-is-on-his mind and won’t-be-gainsaid manner, his ruggedly handsome face, that broad chest and distracting display of muscle, and most of all, the fierce taste of passion that had shown her just how far from nunhood she really was.
Instead of trying to remember every facet of a kiss that should never have happened, she should be focusing on her job. And instead of feeling excited at the prospect of spending time with him over the next few days on the journey north, she should be angry at him for insisting that she leave the Borders and interfering with her mission yet again.
Winter might have brought a temporary lull in the fighting, but the war was not over. Her job was not yet finished. She had to be back by St. Drostan’s. Janet was confident that once she explained everything to Robert, and he could see that she was perfectly safe, she would return to her post in Roxburgh. The king needed her. This informant was too important to risk with someone else. Unlike Ewen, Robert listened to reason.
But even so, she hated the idea of leaving like this. She might have refused to go if she hadn’t been fairly certain the hard-headed brute would toss her over his shoulder like some Viking barbarian and carry her away.
When it came to doing his duty as a soldier, Janet suspected there was nothing that would get in his way. Yes, that was Ewen: the perfect soldier. He didn’t make trouble, did his job, followed orders, no questions asked—or tolerated, she thought angrily. Arguing with him was like trying to argue with a stone wall.
What she didn’t understand was why she cared. She’d like to think it was because he was interfering with her duty, but she knew that wasn’t what was making her heart squeeze when he walked away as if she didn’t matter to him at all. As if the air had not just been crackling between them.
And blast him for bringing up her sister! He didn’t understand anything.
She didn’t know whether she was more annoyed with him or with herself.Him, she decided with certainty as she watched his back grow smaller. He didn’t turn around—not once. Not even to see if she was following.
Her gaze narrowed, her frown deepening as she noticed something and marched over to where he stood with the horses.
“What’s wrong with your leg?”
The slight tensing in his shoulders was barely noticeable, but it was there. “Nothing.”
Without warning, he circled his hands around her waist, picked her up, and unceremoniously plopped her down on her horse. It happened so fast that had she blinked, she might have missed it. She felt a little bit like an iron pot taken straight from the oven.
She gritted her teeth, refusing to be put off. She’d had enough of running into stone walls. She was going to find a way to break him down, one way or another.
“You were favoring your left leg climbing up the rocks.” She’d noticed it as he picked his way up the rocks that surrounded the edge of the loch. Rather than moving with a natural stride, he paused in between each step to lead with his right foot.
As if to prove her wrong, he mounted his horse from the opposite side than he usually did, slipping his left foot in the stirrup first. His movements were smooth and there was no indication that it had caused him pain, but she suspected that it had.
He turned to face her. “As I said, it is nothing.”
Annoyance turned to something else as the ramifications hit her. Her eyes widened with alarm. “You’re hurt!”
He edged his horse away, as if he sensed she might reach for him. “I took an arrow in the leg a few weeks ago.”
She felt as if all the color had been leached out of her in one squeeze. “You were injured in the war?”
Of all the things she’d thought of during the past months, his lying in pain was not one of them. He loomed so large in her mind, seemed so big and indestructible, that she’d never considered…
Stone walls didn’t get hurt!
Oh God, what if…?
Reading her expression, his softened. “A small injury, to be sure.”
But she didn’t believe him. An arrow could leave a path of destruction far wider than its pointed head if it was deep. If the person who pulled it out didn’t have skill. If the wound didn’t heal. If it putrified. If he caught fever.
She looked down at his leg. Was it her imagination or was that a large dark circle in the leather along the side of his thigh?
Her gut checked. “Is it still bleeding?”
“Nay.”
