When Giorgio saidI love youwhile we were making love –
It had been the most beautiful thing, and thesexiestthing, I’d ever heard.
When I came, it had been an overwhelming feeling of love and joy I’d never experienced before.
But now that I was alone with my thoughts…
Other feelings started creeping in.
Darker ones.
I was afraid…
Terrified that I was being seduced to the dark side.
Everything about Giorgio seemed so good and so kind…
And yet, he was amafioso.
His job was…
Well, God only knew what his job was.
Hurting people?
Killingpeople?
It didn’t seem real. The man I knew seemed the complete opposite of all that –
Until I remembered what he’d done to Maurizio.
Then it didn’t seem all that impossible.
But he did it for you,a voice inside me said.He did it because he was falling in love with you.
That made it better… much better, actually…
But it didn’t entirely erase my fears.
Maurizio deserved what he got.
But did everyone else who crossed Giorgio or his bosses deserve it?
Dread slowly crept through my body.
I resisted it…
But it still seeped through me like India ink through a linen tablecloth.
Giorgio was a kind, wonderful man who adored me…
And I was in love with him. There was no question of that.
I would have loved him if he was dirt poor.
But he wasn’t.
And that was what scared me most.
