I bow my head, blinking slowly to stem the tears. A shaking breath, I look up and watch them take away my empty plate.
CHAPTER 12
OWN MY LIFE
TRACK 13 [BONUS] | PRIVACY PIRACY
Have you ever had that feeling that your life is so out of control, and you don’t know what to do with it? I just want to own my life.
The papers keepthe pictures of me and Luc at the charity gala to page seven. We haven’t been plastered across the front page since the movie premiere. Even my singingFalling In Love on a Tuesday Afternoonin the Song Salon didn’t make a big splash on the headlines.
It seems people are already losing interest in my love life, and Mimi and Jess seem concerned. Colin-From-The-Label has been on at them about tour interest. He thinks I’m not going to sell out, and if I don’t, I’ll probably be dropped from my label. What a terrible time for my five-year contract to come to an end.
Jess is trying to formulate a plan to cause intrigue. But right now, it doesn’t look like the relationship is working. Are we not interesting enough? Do people not believe our relationship as they should, or do they believe it so they’re leaving us to be happy?
And I know people are concerned over whether I cansing or not anymore. But I’m sure with a vocal coach’s help I’ll be fine by the tour.
I pour over the articles online, those written today to those from a few days ago. If it’s not working, do we call off the arrangement early?
Jess and Mimi both said I should know it depends on the day’s news agenda and because the pictures were so similar to pictures seen of us before, they weren’t as likely to gain the traction the initial news did.
My phone flashes, Luc’s name distracting me from my spiralling thoughts.
LUC
Can I plan our next date?
SIENNA
Sure
My stomach feels like it’s floating, ready to fly out of my body. I try to stop my lips from curling in the corners, but it’s a useless effort – a fight I cannot win. I drum my fingers on my phone, keeping the chat open while I wait for Luc’s next reply.
LUC
Great, because I already did
SIENNA
Cool, what are we doing?
LUC
You’ll see when we get there
I take it I won’t get you on the tube?
SIENNA
Definitely not
LUC
No prob, can you ask Kareem to pick us up at 7? I’ll get to yours just before that
SIENNA
Sure
