“You don’t have to worry about that.”
I press my lips together, trying to suppress my disappointment. This is why I keep holding back. Each time I get the nerve to tell him, he always says something that makes me believe he doesn’t feel the same, or wouldn’t acknowledge it if he did.
Our friendship is too precious.
Will love destroy it?
Is he afraid to express his true feelings because deep down he knows it could end up ruining everything? That’s another reason holding me back for so long, but with graduation slowly creeping upon us, I can’t hold back any longer. There are too manywhat-ifs, mainly being what-if I let the love of my life get away?
When my mother returns, we are bombarded with her need to document every single second. She continuously snaps shot after shot as Linc slips the corsage on my wrist, a small smirk tugging the corner of his lips as I pin the boutonniere to his lapel. Standing in front of the fireplace, he wraps his arms around my waist as I press my back to his front, the warmth and safety I feel inside of these arms cannot be described.
I belong here.
It is as simple and complicated as that.
After thirty minutes of photos, and a small lecture from my father about drugs and alcohol, and how they can have dire consequences on a night like tonight, Linc leads me out front.
“Linc, you didn’t!”
He squeezes my hand. “Told you I would.”
The driver opens the door with the tip of his hat as we climb inside the long, black limousine. “This is so cool, but you didn’t have to do this. I would have been more than happy to ride in your truck or your mom’s car. How much did this cost?”
“Don’t worry about that stuff, Syl. I’ve got this. Besides, I wasn’t gonna take you in my beat-up truck, or my mom’s Taurus.Thatwould not be cool.” He settles in next to me, the faint smell of his familiar cologne filling the small space. “We’re pickin’ up Rachel and Will, too.”
“They knew about this?”
He nods, a boyish grin curling his lips. “I wanted to surprise you. You surprised?”
“Definitely surprised. Thank you, Linc.” I lean over to kiss his smooth cheek. “This is going to be the best night ever.”
Linc reaches for my hand, lacing my fingers with his, and he doesn’t let go until we get to the hotel where prom is being held.
Tonight is not going the way I planned. Matter of fact, it’s not going well at all. From the second we walk in, Linc is pulled in every direction. It is normal. Everywhere we go he has people wanting to be near him. It’s as if he is the only person in the room. And usually I’m not bothered by it, but tonight I want his full attention.
“Will you stop being a chickenshit and tell him already?” Rachel says.
While Rachel and I sit at the table, the guys go grab us some drinks.
I’ve tried several times to tell him but I just can’t seem to find the right time.
Or the courage.
“I’m going to. I’m just…”
“Chickenshit,” Rachel finishes.
She’s known about my feelings for Linc for a while now and has been doing her best to convince me to come clean for months. She even worked through what to say with me so I didn’t sound like an idiot. And all of it sounds really good, in theory.
Now…not so much.
“You’re not helping you know; you should be giving me words of encouragement.”
“Okay, fine. If you don’t tell him, I will.”
I glare at her. “You wouldn’t.”
She challenges my stare. “Oh, I so would.”
