Every now and then, Jayce will decide to go full rich-playboy-crash-out and will drag me, Wilder, and whoever he can convince out to the casinos to “see how much we can blow.” Personally, I think it’s his way of getting back at his family whenever they piss him off or force him into doing something he doesn’t want to do.
ClickTease: Okay, what do you think of this hand? Should I hit or stay?
GlideControlZ: A seven and a nine? Oh, that is tough. Ummmm… looks like the dealer might bust, so I’d stay.
ClickTease: Boom! Thanks! And they say the house always wins
GlideControlZ: Just don’t get too cocky. The house loves to lull you into a sense of security before it devastates you.
ClickTease: Lol, noted!
We play another hand and she ends up winning again.
GlideControlZ: Beginner’s luck!
ClickTease: Straight up skill, buddy!
I can picture Rylee saying that. Throwing up her hands with a triumphant smirk on her face, and it makes this whole thing that much more real.
She’s not some faceless girl somewhere out in the world. She’s real and I know what her laugh sounds like and how her favorite perfume smells like. She’s just down the hall… so close, yet so far away.
Ugh, this doesn’t feel right. I feel like I’m being dishonest now that I know the truth and my intentions have shifted. I need to tellClickTease- Rylee - that I’m developing feelings for… someone else.
Even though it’s her.
But she doesn’t know that.
Fuck! This is getting complicated.
GlideControlZ: Hey, I need to tell you something.
ClickTease: What’s up?
I take a moment to choose my words carefully.
GlideControlZ: So, full disclosure, I think I’ve met someone. And I’m developing some real feelings for her. I want to still talk to you and get to know each other, but I just wanted to be fully honest with you. I hope that’s okay.
I hardly breathe as I wait for her response. It actually comes a lot faster than I anticipate.
ClickTease: I appreciate your honesty, and it’s totally fine! We’ve already said we’re just friends. Since I’m working out of state, I don’t know when I’ll be back in Nashville to meet you, anyway. Besides, I’ve kind of got a crush on someone else as well. Well, it might not really be a crush - I don’t know if this guy is only interested in hookups or not, and if he is, he wouldn’t be worth it.
Holy fuck! Who is she talking about? Me? Zander? It certainly can’t be Kodiak. She said they were done.
Who else would she be hanging out with enough to develop any sort of feelings for?
If it is me, though, it kind of sucks that she thinks I might only be interested in hook ups. I really hurt her the night of the wedding, didn’t I? I never thought leaving like I did would come back to bite me in the ass like this.
I need to make sure she knows I want so much more with her.
GlideControlZ: I’m sure the guy is interested in more. Any guy that wouldn’t want more with you is crazy.
ClickTease: Then are you crazy?
Fuck… she has no idea.
GlideControlZ: Only time will tell.
CHAPTER NINETEEN: PHOTOSHOOT
