I stare at my phone screen, and before I can overthink it, I send him another message.
Maskedsnack
What gets you off?
I hit send before I can second-guess my actions. This is probably a bad idea—to ask a stranger on the internet about their sexual desires. He takes a few minutes this time, long enough that I wonder if I’ve crossed some invisible line. Then my phone buzzes.
#Notaserialkiller
Loaded question. I like giving up control. Being overpowered and dominated. There’s something about surrendering to someone that appeals to me on a level I haven’t really explored before.
I pause and reread the message. That’s not what I expected.
Maskedsnack
That’s interesting. Most guys wouldn’t lead with that.
#Notaserialkiller
Most men are afraid to admit what they actually want. I’ve spent my whole life being controlled by other’s expectations, structure, and the need to be perfect all the time. The idea of giving that up to someone, of letting them take charge, is appealing in a way I can’t really explain. And honestly, you’re the first person I’ve ever told.
Maskedsnack
That’s a lot to share with a stranger.
#Notaserialkiller
Yeah. Which probably says something about how many friends I don’t have. What about you?
Maskedsnack
I like the idea of multiple partners. I like to be challenged. Someone who doesn’t back down, who pushes back. I don’t want easy. I want someone who makes me fight for what I want.
#Notaserialkiller
Multiple partners? So you want more than one person in your content?
Maskedsnack
Maybe. I’m still figuring it out. But the idea of being surrounded, of having multiple people who all want me, turns me on.
#Notaserialkiller
That’s hot. It would be amazing for content.
Maskedsnack
You think so?
#Notaserialkiller
I know so. But I’m curious, would you want partners who complement each other or partners who compete for your attention?
I bite my lip as I consider the question. The idea of partners competing for my attention, pushing each other, yeah, that definitely appeals to me.
Maskedsnack
A mix, maybe. Some tension and some chemistry. People who want to play with each other.
