Further, given she was being so difficult, Lucian decided that he would not task one of his servants with guarding her. “Then I shall accompany you if you will give me but a moment.”
“I want to strollalone. I want to be alone with my thoughts. I think better when I am walking but cannot do so if I feel like someone is with me.”
“I'm sorry that you do not have such freedom, but until this man is caught, I cannot allow you to venture out without someone to protect you.”
She glared at him for the longest time, her grey eyes turning to ice and then she harrumphed, stomped away, entered her parlor, and slammed the door.
Lucian had no doubt that Eliza would attempt to leave and take a walk and that was the reason he summoned the butler and the housekeeper to warn the other servants to keep an eye on her and to alert him the moment she stepped beyond the gardens.
First,she was angered by Garretson’s ordering her about as if she were his servant, or worse, a child.
Grumbling, she settled behind her desk and wrote out his tarot reading from yesterday, the best that she could remember, so that she could use it in a book.
Present – Death – beginnings or change
Immediate Future – King of Swords – head over heart and discipline
She snorted as she wrote those words. Did Lucian even have a heart?
She knew that he did. It simply didn’t beat for her and never would.
Goals/Destiny – Queen of Pentacles – practicality and financial security
Distant Past – the Hermit reversed – loneliness and isolation.
She paused to wonder if he was lonely. Lucian did live here most of the year, traveling to London only when required. Were his younger brothers often absent as they were now?
Most Recent Past – The Chariot – control and willpower.
“He certainly wants to control me,” she grumbled to herself.
Future Influence – The Lovers – partnerships and union.
She had received a similar card in that position. It was a shame that their partnership was of a short duration.
Though, in truth, she had never really considered anything permanent with Lucian. She’d simply been infatuated with him for ten years and wanted another kiss, and more. But she hadn’t thought past desire. If only she could satisfy that need without the consequences of marriage.
Eliza settled back in her chair and glanced out the window. Why couldn’t she explore those desires? Who would ever know? Just because she was a spinster did not mean that she shouldn’t enjoy all that life had to offer, which could include taking a lover.
She smiled as the idea churned in her mind then continued making the list of his tarot reading.
Questioner / Advice – the Hierophant - tradition and morality.
If that card was accurate than it was unlikely he would willingly be her lover without a marriage. Blast!
External Influences – The Tower – disaster and upheaval.
She grinned. Maybe she was the upheaval he needed in his traditional, controlled, and moral life.
Inner Emotions – the Three of Wands reversed – obstacles and frustrations.
This should have been her card, not his. Lucian had no obstacles in his path and his only frustration was likely her being in his household and wanting her gone.
Final Result – Judgement – reflection and awakening.
Awakening to what, she wondered.
As she read over the list again, Eliza decided that she was his present in that she was bringing change to his discipline, practicality, control, and tradition, and the upheaval he needed in his life.
