“I sang to your ass, fed you custard buns, tucked myself into your bed, and now I’ve seen what’s under your robe—you’re mine.”
Seungho stopped walking. Turned. Grabbed Haneul’s waist, flipped him clean over—one sweep, cradled, held, face to face.
Haneul’s grin faded just a little. Not gone. Just something behind it. Seungho stared down, quiet, breathing hard, and murmured, “Then say it again.”
Haneul blinked. “…what?”
Seungho leaned in, nose brushing his. “If I’m yours…” His voice low, warm, wanting. “…say it again.”
Haneul blinked up at him, the blood finally rushing back to his legs, head spinning from being tossed like a war trophy. A thread of Seungho’s pants hung from his mouth like a cursed wedding veil.
Confusion flickered. “If… you are mine then… huh?”
He twisted in Seungho’s arms. “What—you don’t wanna be mine?! FINE.” He bit the word like iron. “Because I was joking, blockhead—”
There it was. The mask. Fake-disgust, fake-scorn, the fallback weapon.
Seungho saw it, felt it—the core pulse wrong. Not rage. Not hunger. Shame.
Not here. Not now.
He didn’t speak. Not right away. He pulled Haneul closer, not to trap, not to dominate, but just to hold. His hand rose, slow,gentle, and he pressed the edge of Haneul’s braid behind his ear, just so he could see the boy’s face.
“…Haneul,” Seungho whispered.
Haneul’s breath hitched. Seungho tipped his forehead to Haneul’s, thumb grazing a sharp cheekbone.
“You asked if I’ve ever married someone…” A pause. “You’re the first person who made me want to.”
Haneul froze, fists still curled, teeth biting the fabric. Seungho took it from his mouth, flicked the thread away, and murmured, softer than before, “I do want to be yours.”
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CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE– The One Before the First Snow
Haneul slid out of Seungho’s arms like a blade finding its sheath—sharp, smooth, all tension. All defense. He turned his back, not dismissing, but as if afraid that being seen would burn more than any fire. His spine was taut, fists clenched, every muscle drawn like a bowstring straining at the edge of endurance.
Then, softly, Haneul said the name—Seungho. Only the second time. The word landed in the space between them like a war drum wrapped in honey, like a frost deity trying to speak mortal longing for the first time.
Seungho said nothing. He waited. Because what was coming deserved more than fire. It deserved silence. Room to burn and breathe both.
Haneul’s voice was a challenge, a prophecy. “I am a VERY difficult man. Very much.”
A scoff, low and ambiguous—anger, laughter, despair, all in one. “I don’t do soft.”
His shoulders lifted, armor reassembling. “I’m snarky, insolent—borderline lunatic—and clueless with certain things…” His voice cracked. He hated it, pressed on faster. “Suicidal with others.”
That last part, a whisper, shameful as a scar, as if he didn’t know Seungho already saw it.
“I’m always half a step from blowing my core and disappearing—” Haneul’s confession thumped hard in Seungho’s chest, a drum of fear and fatal honesty.
He didn’t stop, couldn’t now. “I doubt I can make you happy.” Each word a blade of ice, meant to kill hope before it dared bloom. “So… what you said.” Softer, but only a hair. “About being mine. Or me being yours. And all that…”
A breath, deeper, breaking. “Don’t fucking say it if you don’t mean it.” His fists curled.
“Because I don’t—” He bit the rest off, stumbled. “If you choose, you can’t un-choose.”
The air itself seemed to drop, colder, thick with frost and magic and a truth that made everything shudder.
