Adeline is stalling and proving to be difficult, and I don't know why. I'm not even sure if I really want to know the reasons behind her hesitation.
I went into her room this morning with the intention of finding out as much as I could about why she's really here and the reason behind her confusion, but then I found myself ignoring the elephant in the room.
She seemed a little confused and asked some peculiar questions as if she didn't understand what is expected of her here, but I blame that on her handler. Morello clearly didn't explain everything to Adeline that he was supposed to. But considering he emailed me right before the deadline, he was most likely in a rush.
Criminals only care about money, not about the people they hurt in the process. I know that better than anyone.
Honestly, I don't want to know why she doesn't want to be here and don't care if she has ultimately changed her mind, because I fucking want her.
I want her more than my next breath.
This girl has crawled under my skin and rooted herself deep inside my veins, and I know I can't just let her go without first taking what I want.
My dark obsession with her frightens me. I've never felt like this before, and I've never craved anything the way I crave Adeline.
It took every single ounce of my willpower to stay in my seat when she offered herself to me during dinner. I wanted to rip her clothes off and plunge my rock hard cock into her silky depths. I had an insanely feral reaction to that girl. And if she could have heard all the depraved thoughts that raced through my mind when she told me she was ready, she would have run screaming the other way.
But one look into her eyes after her offer told me everything I needed to know. She was scared. And she certainly didn't want me.
That instantly calmed the dark beast inside of me from taking her; because for some sick reason, I want Adeline to offer herself to me. I want her to be attracted to me.
I want her to want me just one-tenth of how much I fucking want her.
And the idea of such a painstakingly beautiful creature wanting me turns me the fuck on.
I'm not going to give her a chance to change her mind and back out of our deal. I've already decided I'm going to have her and take what I want.
Consequences be damned.
I just hope she doesn't make me wait much longer.
CHAPTER 15
ADELINE
LUCIEN AND I continue to play the cat and mouse game over the next several days. I try to lure him into my web of lies and deceit so that I can go home, but he always resists.
The more he turns me down, the more I try. And I'm starting to think that maybe this was his goal all along.
We have dinner in my room again just like we have for the past few evenings, and I decide to try a different approach. Instead of asking when I can go home and basically eating in silence, I'm going to make some small-talk and get to know my captor a little better…even if that should be the furthest thing from my mind right now.
If I'm being totally honest with myself, Lucien's company hasn't been…awful. He's actually seems really smart, and he is nice to look at. I don't know why I'm trying to find the silver lining in this messed up situation, but at least he's not an old, ugly, bald guy with a pot belly who's trying to rape me every night.
Things could definitely be worse.
I need to keep telling myself that if I'm going to survive this.
"What do you do for a living, Lucien?" I ask him while stabbing a buttered asparagus spear with my plastic fork. Apparently, I'm still not being trusted with metal utensils.
Lucien dabs his mouth with a linen napkin. "Without getting into too many boring details, I'm a software engineer."
"So you're good with computers then."
"Yes."
"Did you go to college for that?" I'm genuinely interested, and I hope that he can see that.
"Yes and no. I went to college, but dropped out to pursue other ventures. I was trained by a professional hacker to perform some of the work I need to do."
