“So good as in one time or five times?” Her concern gives way to curiosity.
I laugh at her question. She’s asking me how many orgasms I had. “Good as in I lost track.”
Her hand darts to the middle of her chest. “At least one of us is having great sex.”
I’m grateful it’s me.
“You said you needed some air, Tilly. Why?”
I rub my neck. I wasn’t expecting her to ask me that and I’m not sure I’m prepared to answer. “We went to Crispy Biscuit for breakfast and Jo was there…”
“I love Jo,” she interrupts.
I pause to nod before I continue, “I was about to introduce her to Sebastian, but they already met years ago.”
“It’s that six degrees of separation thing everyone talks about in this city.”
I look down at my jeans. “Jo said that we were a perfect match. She actually used the wordsmatch made in heaven.”
“I’m on team Jo on this one.” She crosses her legs at the ankles. “I saw how perfect you could be together the day I met him.”
I look up. “He’s not looking for anything like that, Kate. He doesn’t want a girlfriend. His job is his priority.”
She slides to her feet. “Did he come right out and tell you that?”
“Yes, “ I say quickly. “It was the day that Wendy showed up at my apartment.”
“I thought they might be just fuck buddies.” She tucks a lock of her hair behind her ear.
“They’re not anymore.”
“What do you mean?” Confusion knits her brow. “How do you know that?”
I pause. “Last night when we went for a beer he told me that their arrangement is over.”
Her gaze wanders over her desk before she focuses on me. “It sounds like you were on a date last night.”
I throw my head back into the soft leather of the chair. “You’re impossible. We didn’t go on a date. We fucked last night, had breakfast together today and I bailed because I already feel things.”
“Heart things?” She points at my chest.
I shrug off the question. “Intense things. I want to spend as much time with him as I can. I want to get back into bed with him and stay there.”
“So do those things. You’re in love with the way he fucks.”
“I’m not in love with the way he fucks,” I protest weakly, wondering if that’s a real thing because if it is, I may be guilty of it.
“You haven’t had sex in a long time,” she points out. “You just had incredible sex. It’s understandable that your feelings are going to be a jumbled mess.”
I scrub my hand over my forehead. “They are all jumbled together.”
It’s an understatement. I haven’t been able to think straight since I got into the shower with Sebastian. Jo’s words only added another layer to my confusion.
“Don’t overthink this, Tilly.” Kate crosses her arms over her chest. “Fucking doesn’t have to lead to anything. It can just be mind-blowing sex.”
“Do you really believe that?” I ask with skepticism.
She lowers her voice and leans closer to me. “I believe that you can fuck Sebastian and not let your heart get tangled up in the middle of it.”
