I look over my shoulder. “Yes?”
“If you want some company or something while you’re visiting, you can always come down here.” There are hints of concern in her bright eyes, and I realize now how it must have looked to her, me staying locked in my room for two days. I wonder if she knew about my accident too, with the town being so small. “Just, you know, if you want . . .”
It takes me a minute to respond, but I give her a genuine smile when I do. “Thank you.”
I feel her eyes on my back as I proceed up the stairs. I expected to be annoyed at the sympathy like I usually would be, but I can’t deny it’s kind of comforting. My new key slides right into the keyhole and the door eases open. I lock it behind me and head into the bathroom, resting my palms on the sink rim as I gaze at my reflection.
“You’re fine. You’re good.” I’ve never actually tried this whole ‘talk to your reflection’ thing, but it’s something I used to overhear Grams doing. Worth a shot, right? Hell, why stop there? “You’re wonderful. The bee’s knees. Bodacious. Supernacular.”
I snort and face-palm myself. Oh god. I don’t even know how I turned British in the middle there, but this has to be a new low.
My sweater chafes my shoulder blade, and I wince as it irritates the raw, tender skin. I hadn’t thought much about the injury since leaving the hospital, having had other things to focus on—or focus onavoiding—but now the memory resurfaces in my mind: rain smacking against the windshield, trees and darkness spinning around me, the boomingcrackof my window breaking, and shards of glass flying at me.
I pull my sweater off. Eyes closed, I reach an arm across my chest and over my shoulder, tracing the tips of my fingers along the thick, three-inch cut that hasn’t quite scarred yet. It’s smooth beneath the stitches. Too smooth, and it feels foreign; a piece of my body I don’t recognize. I’ve always thought scars were meant to represent strength; all this one does is remind me that I shouldn’t be alive right now.
That I’m lost.
Drifting.
My eyelids flutter open, and my breath catches at the sudden touch of strong, warm fingers moving over my own. A slow, gentle stroke glides over the wound, but it’s not from me. It can’t be. My hand is stuck, frozen in place over my shoulder blade as though not daring to move. The mirror before me proves I’m alone in the bathroom, and yet, I feel it again, the same presence I felt several nights ago. Heat radiates behind my body as though someone is standing right there.
Another stroke caresses the wound, and it’s even lighter this time, like a feather brushing over me. The feeling of skin against skin is as real as anything. I can almost hear my heartbeat pounding within my chest. The fingers move past my wound, never breaking contact with my skin, and slowly trail upward, toward my neck. Though the texture feels strong and almost rough, the touch itself is impossibly gentle, treating me like something fragile.
No matter how loud my mind screams to fight it, my muscles are relaxing like jelly under the heavy sensation. My uplifted arm drops helplessly to my side. The warm touch strokes the side of my neck, wandering up further still until it’s almost in my hair. It’s light enough to send a shiver to my toes, and my eyelids start to close on their own, my head rolling slightly forward.
The presence behind me inches closer, and I hear breaths again. Just like the other night, they’re deep and controlled, right by my ear.
I have no idea what’s happening to me. Half of me is struck with a pang of fear, unease over the impossible experience. Yet the other half can’t help but be soothed by the calming tingles running through the length of me. There’s a trust I can’t explain, like a gentle, unspoken lullaby, and I know I’m safe. The heat, the masculine touch, the warm breaths soft as a whisper that rise and fall at the nape of my neck. I don’t want to think at all right now. I just want tofeel.
The caress slides back down the right side of my neck, almost skimming along my collarbone, when it stops. Draws back. I hear a hitch in the breathing, a tremble for a fleeting moment, the smallest hint of the effort it takes to pull back. Then the touch returns, but only to my scar, traveling down the length of it with incredible slowness, taking its time. As though savoring every moment of contact with me, in a way I’ve never experienced. A sigh pours from my lips, and when my head falls back, it’s caught by the solid warmth behind me. It’s real enough that I could swear I’m pressed up against the presence right now, a presence that sure as hell feels like a man—tall, strong, sturdy. The feeling is so vivid I find myself thinking in terms ofhiminstead ofit.
A shake breaks his steady breathing again, another warm tremble in my ear, and I feel the tightness of his body rise and fall with each breath.
I’m letting myself go, relaxing every part of me until the only thing keeping me upright is his body, and as I do, the hard curves of muscle tense against my back.
Something in the air changes, and the presence behind me wavers. It’s completely solid one moment, and in the next it’s fluid, as though nothing more than a strong breeze props me up. Soon it’s not even a breeze, just a puff of air, and I’m grabbing the edge of the counter with both hands to keep from tumbling backward.
My legs wobble, struggling to support the rest of me. When I catch sight of my reflection now, my face is flushed. I let out a loud exhale when I remember how to breathe and command myself to get a grip. I’m still feeling like a sloshy puddle when I slip my sweater back on over my head and drag myself to the front door of my room, unlocking it and yanking it open.
I need fresh air like a drug right now, and I can’t stumble down the stairs fast enough. I hear Claire’s bubbly greeting when I fly past the front desk, but I don’t stop until I’m standing on the sidewalk, bending forward with my hands on my knees and soaking up the crisp winter breeze.
What the hell is happening? This can’t just be in my head. I know I’ve been a little off since Grams’s passing, but there’s no way I’d be able to dream up something so freaking real.
It was here.Hewas here.
Whoever he is.
Chapter 5
“Ah, Lou?” Claire’s voice comes from behind me, quiet and uncertain. “Are you all right?”
I take a second to try and pull it together, hoping I look collected by the time I turn around and give her a non-answer. “Just getting some air.” She doesn’t respond, so I shrug and steal her words from earlier. “You know, the magic of the winter season and all that.”
Claire’s frown tilts upward into a sweet smile, and her shoulders loosen a little. “It is pretty, isn’t it?” She lifts her chin and gazes around wistfully.
“Sure is.” I walk around her and slip through the inn’s open door. I hear her close it behind us as I halt at the bottom of the staircase, unsure if I’m ready to go back up.
What if he comes back?
