“We really should talk,” Noel murmured against his lips.
“Not yet,” was all Daniel could get out as he thrust his tongue back into Noel’s mouth.
The kiss was wet. Deep. And Noel’s body felt so unbelievably good on top of his. He was heavy and big, and Daniel felt surrounded.
He fucking loved it.
Noel kissed down his jaw to his neck, where he opened his mouth and sucked. He kept going, pressing open-mouthed kisses on Daniel’s bare skin. He licked around his left nipple, then took it into his mouth and sucked.
Daniel’s back bowed as he gasped in air. But Noel didn’t let up, biting his other nipple and nipping at his belly. He nuzzled his nose into Daniel’s happy trail and groaned.
“You smell so good,” he murmured as he pulled down Daniel’s sweats. Daniel’s cock lay hard against his abdomen, and Noel took a couple of moments to stare before his hot gaze came up to meet Daniel’s. “I missed your beautiful dick. I missed you, Daniel.”
Daniel wanted to tell him he’d missed him, too, but he was too overcome with dizzying desire. He watched avidly as Noel took him into his mouth, crying out at the hot, wet clasp. It felt like coming home, which was crazy when they’d only spent three days together over five years ago, but that’s the way he felt. He couldn’t take his eyes off Noel, who stared back as he slowly moved down onto his cock. He came back up and let it fall from his mouth before giving Daniel the most sensual grin, then dipping his head to lick around the head. He took it back into his mouth, his cheeks going in as he sucked hard and moved back down again.
He never took his eyes off Daniel.
Daniel knew what he looked like. Wide eyes, open mouth as he panted. It just felt so surreal to be where he’d longed to be for so long. He reached down to thread his fingers through Noel’s hair, loving the silky strands around his skin. He ran his fingers through it over and over, and he could tell that Noel liked it by the way his eyes grew heavy-lidded. Still he stared and kept doing so as he took Daniel deep and swallowed around his head.
A sudden rush of pleasure swept through him. He bowed up again and threw his head back to cry out as he tightened his fingers in Noel’s hair. Noel groaned around his cock, his tongue stroking in the most delicious fashion. He swallowed around him again, and Daniel’s orgasm hit and hit hard.
His eyes snapped shut, his mouth opening in a silent scream as so much pleasure went through him. Wave after wave of it that he rode out with utter and complete focus. Just losing himself to the blessed escape from reality.
He finally slumped, his hands falling away from Noel’s hair as Noel rested his cheek on Daniel’s abdomen and took a deep breath. “I could breathe you in forever. Could swallow your cum every day for the rest of my life.” He lifted his head to look at Daniel. “You do understand that, right? That I want more with you. That this isn’t just another hookup. I want you, Daniel with everything I am.”
Instead of answering, Daniel just whispered. “Come up here and let me suck you. I know you gotta be aching by now.”
“Oh, I am, but it’s a delicious ache. The anticipation is half the fun.” He tilted his head, his sandy hair falling over one eye. “I’m more interested in you hearing what I need to say. I didn’t mean to stay away but the job I was on at the time stretched out so long—” He broke off, his eyes shadowed. “I was undercover at the time. I couldn’t tell you the truth.”
“You were undercover for five years?” Daniel couldn’t help the layer of heavy sarcasm in his tone.
“No, but it was for over a year. By the time I wasn’t, it felt like too much time had passed. I was sure you would have moved on. I still thought of coming back, but I convinced myself to let you go. I broke a lot of rules being with you over that weekend. Rules that nearly got me fired.”
“You would have deserved it.”
“Yes, I would have.” He touched Daniel’s cheek. “I’m sorry. Sorry it took me so long to get up the courage to try again. I’m leaving my job. Leaving because I want to be here. With you. Do you want that, Daniel?”
There was so much he wanted to say. But he was still scared. Even with the certain knowledge this man was his soulmate, a part of Daniel was still stuck in five years of pain and longing. Of missing Noel’s touch.
Truth was, he was too fucking confused to give Noel any kind of response. So, he stayed silent. They lay there a long time until Daniel gave in to the needs of his sated body and closed his eyes.
Chapter Six
Noel
Noel wondered if Daniel falling asleep was a sort of escape mechanism. Either that or his orgasm had been so strong, it had knocked him out. That made him feel great, but still, disappointment filled him when Daniel didn’t give him an answer. He’d just rested there silently until his eyes closed.
Now as Noel looked down at the sleeping man, affection warmed his chest. He got up and gently lifted Daniel to carry him into his bedroom. It was the same house he’d had five years before, and not much had changed. There were a few more plants and a new piece of fantasy art on the living room wall, but his bedroom looked just the same. Cozy and crammed full of furniture. There was enough light spilling in from the hall to see that he’d obviously been in bed already, the covers in a tangle.
Noel laid Daniel on the bed and pulled his sweats completely off, since he knew Daniel liked sleeping naked. Then Noel forced himself to leave the bedroom. But he couldn’t bring himself to leave the house, so he turned off all the lights except for one small nightlight in the hall, then stretched out on the couch, fullyclothed, and stared at the shadowed ceiling. The longing to be in that room holding Daniel was strong, but he resisted.
Daniel was still hesitant. And Noel had seen the pain in his eyes. He’d put that pain there. Truth was, he could have reached out sometime in the last five years. He’d wanted to. But he had been a coward.
He was going to have to be patient now, because the ball was in Daniel’s court. Noel was the one who’d walked away from something special without a goodbye. What Daniel didn’t know was that Noel had stood looking down at him for a long time before he’d forced himself to leave that house. That every step away he’d felt deep in his gut because the pull to go back had been so strong.
“Noel?”
He looked up over the back of the couch to find Daniel standing there, stark naked. There wasn’t near enough light to see that gorgeous body but that didn’t stop him from trying.
