Helena stepped away from Baldwin and toward the bubbling beauty before her. “Oh, it’s lovely. Her face is so…so enchanting.”
“Yes.” His voice came softly. “It is.”
Heat flooded her cheeks, and she didn’t dare turn back for fear she might find him looking at her, not the statue. And if she did, fearing what she might do next. Out here, in the quiet dark, in the soft moonlight, anything seemed possible.
“You miss your friends at home,” he said, a statement, not a question.
She continued to look at the statue, though her pleasure in it faded a fraction. “Why do you say that?”
“Because you said you envied my close friendships. So I assumed you must be longing for your own.” He stepped up next to her and stared up at the fountain lady’s perfectly carved face. Still, she felt his tension. His…waiting.
She swallowed. “Ididhave a circle of friends in Boston,” she said, and her eyes stung with sudden tears. “But we—we grew apart in recent years.”
She could still recall her best friend giving her the cut direct after her fall. It was a moment she would never forget.
He faced her, his expression suddenly curious. “I suppose that happens,” he said softly. “As our lives change.”
He was too close now. Too close and too warm in the cool late spring air. She found herself leaning toward him, her body doing what it pleased rather than what was prudent. She caught herself and stepped away.
To her surprise, he followed, closing the distance she had created. Her throat felt like it was tightening and her world began to spin as she stared up into his handsome face. His unattainable and oh-so-very handsome face.
“Baldwin,” she squeezed out.
He muttered something beneath his breath and then he reached out, catching her arm and drawing her up against him. His chest was rock solid and her body molded to it like it had been made to do so. She could have pulled away, probably should have, but instead she reached up to grip his forearms, anchoring herself in whatever way she could.
His mouth lowered, torturously slowly, and then she felt his warm breath stir on her lips. She gasped, and it was in that moment that he claimed her mouth. What started as a gentle kiss rapidly spun out of control. His arms came around her, pulling her even closer, and his tongue stroked inside her mouth.
Her world stopped. Ceased to exist. It was replaced only by sensation. Of his hard body against her soft one, of the taste of him, of the smell of his skin. He drove his tongue inside of her with finesse and the perfect combination of dominating demand and gentle coaxing.
She couldn’t help but relax. It had been ages since she was kissed, and never like this. Never so…thoroughly. She opened and met his tongue with her own. He made a harsh noise deep in his throat and his hips bumped hers.
She arched against him, lifting to wrap her arms around his neck as she fought for purchase, fought to control, fought to get closer somehow.
But just as suddenly as he had taken her in his arms, he pulled away. He steadied her, then paced off several steps, running his hands through his hair. She watched him, bereft and confused and a tiny bit grateful for his discretion when she’d had none.
“I’m bloody sorry, Helena,” he said at last, turning to face her.
Everything seemed almost magical in the moonlight and her heart stuttered with a longing she had never felt before. One that made her braver than she was. She clenched her hands before her, worrying them as she whispered, “Are you? I suppose it would be very wanton of me to tell you I am not.”
His eyes went wide and dilated, desire slashing across his angled face. “No, it would be honest.” He bent his head. “Honesty is a valuable commodity. One I am sadly lacking.”
She stared at him, confused and intrigued. “I cannot imagine that you are not honorable or honest.”
He barked out a humorless laugh before he turned away. “No one can imagine it. That is how I’ve gotten away with everything for so damned long. And here I am, standing in my sister’s garden, practically seducing you in front of the lady fountain and you havenoidea of who I am.”
Helena could not deny how she was brought in by his pain. By his struggle that was so obvious in every tense muscle in his body. She moved toward him, stepping around so that he couldn’t avoid looking at her. She reached out, hesitant, and took one of his clenched hands in her own.
“What is it?” she whispered. “Can’t you tell me?”
He seemed to ponder that a moment, then he nodded. “If I’m going to accost you in the garden and then pull away, I suppose you deserve to know why.” He hesitated, and she watched all the color drain from his cheeks. Then he pulled his hand from hers and said, “What you must understand, Helena, is that I havenothing.”
Baldwin felt the words coming from his mouth, words that had remained unspoken for so many years. And yet he couldn’t stop them. He looked at this woman, this lovely woman who fascinated him, and hewantedto tell her the truth. Heneededher to understand why what they’d just done, that stunning kiss, was impossible.
Perhaps he needed to remind himself, as well.
He watched for her reaction, but her expression remained passive, open, accepting rather than judging, and it spurred him on. Not that he could have stopped. Saying it out loud had opened floodgates he’d been bracing against for years.
“No one knows,” he continued, moving to sit down hard on the bench across from the fountain. “Not even my mother understands the full extent of the damage to our position, though she is aware of some of it.”
