He’d been hurt by Alphas all his life and yet had an open mind to what I had to say. He truly listened.
“Yes, well, I’d be shunned by my family and my superiors if anyone found out. I had to be careful. But I finally took a risk last night.”
“Well, I’m glad you did.” He squeezed my hand. “How did you end up with horses then?”
“My uncle died in an accident on his ranch a few years ago. That was how I learned that he left everything to me, including this house and the stables.”
“How do you have the time to take care of them?”
“I don’t. I hired good, trusted people…omegas actually, who do. My horses don’t take part in racing anymore.”
“Why?”
“The one thing I hated about races was them getting hurt and what happened to them after. So since I don’t need the income from racing, I buy the injured animals and have them brought here so they can run on my land. Military rules for horses are just as strict, so when any get hurt, I bring them here if I can do it in time before…” He shook his head. We both knew what he meant. “I lend my fields to local farmers, but they mostly pay me in food. The time I spend with horses calms me down after I come home from work.”
“Oh. Your pay covers all that?”
“Yes. Privilege and connections bought me a quick climb and an easy position, I’m not gonna lie. ”
“What do you actually do then?”
“As you probably know, since the government defunded Police, the military has expanded its divisions. I signed up for the drugs unit. So I was sent with my team to bust basementfactories and dens. I’ve seen a fair share of horrors, but I wasn’t in active combat.”
“Horrors like what?”
“What happens to omegas who are addicted and can’t afford drugs,” I said, keeping my voice steady.
Sol pulled his lips into a flat line and nodded. “I’ve heard stories. And Dryden showed me pictures of what would happen to me if I wouldn’t listen to him. That’s why it took me so long to try to escape.”
“So horses are your therapy? Is that how you cope?”
“Yes. I think my fascination with being dominated started as a form of punishment for how I saw omegas treated. At my parent’s lush parties, and at the dens. They were someone’s, but the moments when they were dominated by Alphas, I was jealous. I wanted someone to want me so much to fuck me, to dominate me, humiliate me but also…love me.” I groaned and wiped my face with my hand. What the hell was I saying? “I know it’s fucked up.”
“Nah. Not in the world we live in.” He pulled his legs up and rested his feet on my lap. “I’d be happy to degrade you some more soon.”
Can I keep you?
“I thought I’d never have that. But you gave me so much already, Sol.” My Sun.
“You’re so high on my pheromones.” He laughed softly.
It was more than that. It was Sol. Had to be. But I had no way of being certain until his heat finished. “I’ll get you something to drink and a snack pouch before your next wave.”
“How are the cramps?” I asked Sol as he returned from the bathroom. His hair was damp and his body still glistening with droplets of water. He’d wanted to refresh alone, and I was glad he’d felt well enough to do so.
I used the time to change the sheets in my bedroom and waited for him there.
“They’re returning slowly. When I yelled for you to breed me, I was hoping my body was ready, but it wasn’t. At least it pissed Dryden off more.” Sol offered me a sassy wink.
Cheeky brat. “During the previous wave, I felt the opening to your womb. You’ll be ready this time.”
“Everyone is different, and it’s my first heat, remember? It’s possible. I need to stretch more and—” His smile grew positively wicked. “Lie back and let me position you the way I want to. Follow my lead.” He maneuvered my arm to be bent at the elbow with my hand up. “Stay still.” He reached behind himself and gathered his slick, then slathered it all over my hand and arm.
“What are you—” Blood rushed to my face and my dick at the same time. It was a miracle I wasn’t dizzy all the time with Sol.
“You’re my servant, so you can double as my dildo.” Sol positioned himself on his knees and guided my fingers into him.
“Yes, Master.” The degradation washed over me and my cock twitched.
