Our hunger pangs also trigger together.
She bobs her head as she swallows a mouthful. “It’s nice being able to geek out on technology with someone who gets it.”
I raise my eyebrows. “Hey, you’re the brains, I’m the muscles. I can’t have it all, Gina.”
Regina has tried her best to teach me her ways, but all that shit goes way over my head, to the point where it gives me a migraine.
I once dozed off during a passionate lecture about coding; I didn’t mean it, of course. I told her to take it as a compliment.
Not much gets me to sleep.
She casts her gaze behind me, leaning over the table. “I saw Saint coming out of your room last night, wanna talk about that?”
When he read my tattoo, he made a beeline and left the room. Leaving me with the feel of his kiss against my swollen lips, an unforgivable ache between my thighs, and even more unanswered questions.
“Yeah, we kinda just said some unspoken words we’ve both been holding in over the years.”
He mentioned he doesn’t want to lose control, and it took me a while to understand what he meant.
He thinks he’ll hurt me, or that it’ll get too much for my mind.
“Annnnd?” She leans in closer, to the point where she might as well just sit on my damn lap.
I shrug. “And nothing.”
Her eyes narrow on me. “Don’t you dare try and lie to me, Indie Kent. What happened?”
She mirrors the same kind of glare my mom would give me as a kid to spill the truth. So I rush my words out, moving the food on my plate with the fork.
“We kissed. That was all.”
Her hands slap on the table, clattering the cutlery next to her plate. “I beg your finest pardon?That was all? Indie, don’t downplay that. That’shugefor you.”
Her eyes soften on me; she knows it meanseverythingto me.
I just don’t want to think too much into it. We’re obviously still attracted to each other, but that could be all it is from his side.
“I know, God, I know.” I rub my hands over my face, holding them next to my temples. “I just feel like he’s still hesitant around me. I’m not sure if it’s because of what Conrad did, or what I’ve been doing, or because I hurt him.”
My jaw flexes at my words. My mind is undoubtedly stronger, but the black cloud of doubt still manages to seep its way into me from time to time.
I don’t think that will ever leave.
Regina takes my hand, placing her other one on top of it.
“Let’s eradicate some of those things, shall we? What Conrad did? No.” She shakes her head. “Saint almost killed him when he found you, now I know he seriously would have been capable. What you’ve been doing?Hell no.I was talking to Rex earlier whilst I was looking through their files; yours is a puddle of blood compared to their ocean.”
I bite my inner cheek. “Did Rex say anything else?”
He’s always been closer with Regina, more like a brother and sister type relationship, and I’ve watched him open up to her more than when we first arrived.
She drops her gaze to our intertwined hands. “He travelled to Saint when he found out about Jenna. It seems as though he’s never left his side.”
A twinge nestles itself in my chest at the thought. It was hard enough never knowing where Saint was, what he was doing, if he’d moved on.
Never mind knowing the person you love being gone forever, their heart no longer beating on this earth, someone being responsible for it.
“I don’t blame him.”
