“I hope you make those same pretty noises for me that you made for him.” I smile up at her as I take her nipple between my teeth and suck on it hard.
“Please.” She sobs as she spills into my mouth.“Please, please, please.”
“It’s okay, baby.” I start to stroke away that ache she’ll be feeling between her legs with my hand. “I told you I’d take care of you.” Standing us both up, I rip the shirt off her body completely, then lock the door so she can’t run.
“You never gave me an opportunity to show you what you mean to me,” I unbuckle my belt and smile as I walk back toward her. My poor girl looks so scared, but I know she’s gonna feel different when she’s taken me inside her. She’s never gonna fear me again.
“You're so fuckin’ beautiful.” I slide my hand over her face.
“Please, Greaser, I’m begging you.” She shakes her head as her tears spill onto my fingers.
“You know, you were mine before you were his. Griller may have drawn all those stupid pictures and written those stupid letters, butIwas the one who wanted you the most. We had a pact; a pact that Griller broke when he fucked you.”
“Greaser, we ca–”
“Stop calling me that,” I growl, struggling a little to unbutton her jeans, but eventually managing to pull them to the floor. She looks up at the ceiling, clearly humiliated when I notice the sanitary towel she has in her panties.
“I told you, my body isn’t ready. I’m still bleeding.” She’s trying hard to hold back her tears now, or maybe she’s just all cried out of ’em.
“It’s okay, I don’t mind. It’ll take more than a bit of blood to stop me making you feel loved.” I slide the panties off her too, then, taking the gun from my back pocket, I lightly press my hand to her shoulder and sit her on the bed.
“Everything’s gonna change after this,” I promise. “We’re gonna b?—”
“Alicia!” A crash comes from the other side of the door, and I punch my fist hard at the mattress.
“Vike!” she calls his name out desperately…hisfuckin’ name when she’s meant to be screaming mine! “We’re in here.” Her eyes brighten, sparkling with fresh hope, and I dash it away when I press the barrel of the gun against her forehead.
“If he comes through that door, you fuckin’ die,” I warn her, feeling myself shake with rage. I don’t wanna kill Alicia, but I refuse to lose her to him again.
“Alicia, I’m coming,” Vike calls out, rattling the handle of the door. Her face turns even more panicked when we hear him slam himself up against it.
“Wait, stop! Vike, he’s got a gun,” she cries out at him desperately.
“And I'm pressing it right up against her pretty little face, Vikey boy.” I chuckle when I think about how powerless he is right now. Not so much of a man now, huh, Mom?
“Greaser, let her go.” I can hear the frustration in his voice; he sounds ready to kill. He knows he can’t protect her; he can’t be her hero. All he can do is listen.
“Nah, I think I’ll keep her. You should see the way she’s looking at me. Beautiful, ain’t she?”
“I swear, if yo–”
“Vike, please, just stay on the other side,” Alicia begs him when the door handle rattles again. “He’s not bluffing, Vike.” She squeezes her eyes tightly shut.
“See? She’s made her choice. She’s changed her mind.” I say the words, even though I know they ain’t true. My mind's not my own anymore. I’ve known it for some time; I’ve just never wanted to admit that I’m just like that bitch lying dead out there on the living room floor.
“That's right, Vike, you stay on the other side of the door, while I slide my dick up inside her pussy. I’m gonna show her who the better man is,” I holla back, holding the gun in one hand and using my other one to stroke my dick hard. Alicia is distracting me with her scared little whimpers. She’ll never understand how real my feelings are for her. I’ve made myself bleed over and over for this woman. The scars on my legs will never heal from how deep I’ve cut myself open. And she’s betrayed me, the same way my brother did.
“I swear when you get outta there, I’mma fuckin’ kill you!” Vike is on his last nerve. I can hear it in his voice, and when I force Alicia to lie back by leaning over her body, she starts sobbing as I force apart her legs with my knees.
“You can’t stay in there forever, Greaser. You gotta come out some time, and when you d?—”
“I’m not comin’ out. D’ya see what I did to my mother out there? I’m going to hell.” I close my eyes and swallow back tears. I never, ever thought I’d be able to hurt her. For years, I was so afraid. I took her shit; I was her personal fuckin’ punchbag. I shouldn’t feel bad for the bullet I put in her brain, yet I hate myself for it.
“I’m just havin’ one last ride before I make the journey.” I smile at her as I let my cock press against her pussy and continue jacking off against her. “Promise you’ll keep it,” I whisper, not wanting Vike to hear how desperate I am.
“What?” Alicia rolls her eyes over me as if I’m crazy.
“If I knock you up, would you keep it, like you kept his?” I look over to the baby Alicia made with my brother. The baby I was prepared to raise as my own.
