“If it’s something dealing with you, tell me now, Ciara. I’m good. What’s going on, Best?” she asked with concern in her voice.
“Trell made me get checked, and they confirmed that I’m pregnant. It’s twins, but I don’t know what I’m gon’ do. This is not what I expected, and I don’t want to go through with it,” I told Moni as I passed her the ultrasound.
Moni looked at it with her hand over her mouth, and while she examined it, she started to cry. She pulled me in for a hug and held on tight to my neck as she spoke in my ear.
“Ciara Nicole! That’s a blessing, girl! God knew what you needed, and he gave it to you double. You got me! If you ain’t got nobody else in the world, just know that I got your back through whatever! Appointments and anything else you need, I’m going to be right there holding your hand. You won’t ever do this alone. If you don’t want Trell, you don’t have to be with him, but what I do know is that he’s gonna do his part. We don’t mess with bums ’round here. He knows what time it is when it comes to you and those babies. I promise I’m rockin’ if you rollin’, Ci! Just tell me that you gon’ keep them, and I’m gonna do everything I can to make sure y’all straight.”
“Moni, I don’t know, man. I got so much that I’m still trying to accomplish. We are not the same. Look at you. You have a man who worships the ground you walk on. I don’t wanna be a single mother with two kids before I even pass my bar exam. I don’t want Trell in my life for the rest of my life. This is just not what I wanted for me!” I cried.
“This happened for a reason, not an accident. If I’m telling you that I got you, just trust me. Look me in my eyes and tell me that when you found out it was twins you weren’t excited. Man, that’s a big blessing. The big man is trying to tell you something, so you better listen.”
During the rest of the ride, I laid my head on Harmoni’s shoulder and contemplated my next move. I knew I should’ve been comforting her, but I needed it too. My friend was never one to judge me. She was always there whenever I needed her, and that’s why I would forever go so hard behind her. When we made it back to her house, Rowdy took Harmoni inside, then he brought out my keys from his pops. I knew that there was a lotthey needed to talk about and get squared away, so I gave them their time, but I promised to come back over tomorrow.
Trell walked up to my car after I got in, trying to talk to me, but I pulled off on him. I had to figure my own shit out.
Once I made it home, I let myself into my house and flicked the light switch, but everything was dark. I turned my flashlight on my phone as I crept further inside. I knew like hell they hadn’t cut my shit off because I had my bill on autopay. As I walked toward my bedroom, I stood at the door and noticed that my whole headboard was broken and there was no sign of Smutty. Before I knew what was happening, he jumped out of my hall closet and started choking me from behind with the handcuffs that were still on his wrist.
I used all my might to throw my body weight back on him in hopes of loosening his grip.
“Bitch, you ain’t smarter or stronger than me, hoe! You really thought I was about to allow you to play me like that and let you live? You tased me, cuffed me, and almost sliced my ass up. Nah, bitch. No more being nice to you bitches,” Smutty barked in my ear.
I felt myself losing consciousness, and it was harder for me to breathe. I thought about how ironic it was that I said I didn’t want the twins, and I wasn’t going to bring them into this world. I wanted to play God, and now I was in a position where I had no choice. When I said I didn’t want to have these babies, I definitely didn’t mean like this. I was losing all my strength to fight back, and everything around me started to fade. Smutty continued to choke the life out of me.
Just as I was about to let go and stop fighting, I heard a faint screeching sound, then brain matter flew all over me and my walls. Smutty’s body went limp, causing him to fall on top of me. I almost hit the floor, but Trell caught me. He got Smuttyfrom around me, and I noticed he had his gun in hand, silencer attached.
“I told you if a nigga was at your crib, he would be a dead man,” Trell said as I collapsed into his arms, and he hugged me tighter than ever.
Isat in my baby boy’s room and watched his dad change him. Although I was physically there, my mind was somewhere else. I almost lost my life at the hands of an obsessed ass bitch. I was beaten, tortured, orally assaulted, sodomized, and degraded by Serg and Diamond. I would never tell Rowdy what all had been done to me because it made me feel less than.
Diamond had found a nigga just as sick as her. She ordered him to do shit to me that I would have never imagined putting someone through, and all while I was bleeding and going through afterbirth. I was beyond traumatized, and I could only hope that those Memphis niggas had already sent those bitches to their maker.
Once Rowdy changed Cadence, he took him into the living room with his dad. He told me to throw on some shoes. I didn’twant my child to be away from me for even one moment. I told Rowdy that I needed to bring Cadence if I was going anywhere outside of the house, and he told me that the baby couldn’t go.
I walked into the living room and looked Grimy in his eyes. He gave me a look in return that let me know he would lay down his life for my son. I was still hesitant about leaving the house, but I knew that I was safest with Rowdy.
Rowdy turned on ocean sounds and let them fill his car. He always made sure I was comfortable, and I loved that. We were riding for a while before anything started to look familiar. As we drove down the dirt road, I remembered being this way earlier when they found me.
“No, no, no. Take me home, Rowdy. I didn’t want to be here. Please take me home.”
“Bae, I promise to never let another soul hurt you. You need to see this for yourself so you can know that it’s really over. I got you. You never have to be afraid when you’re with me. I swear you don’t,” Rowdy said as he parked the car then walked around to my side.
He opened my door and helped me out of the car. I was still very sore, and it hurt to even walk. My man grabbed my hand and walked me to the door of the house. My feet were frozen in place as I stood at the front door, and it was hard for me to even breathe.
Rowdy opened the door, and all the guys that we had seen earlier were still there, standing around. They greeted Rowdy and me and told him that they were waiting for us. Serg was unrecognizable and barely breathing. He and Diamond were sitting on the floor in the living room duct taped by their hands and feet. Diamond was beaten badly, but she looked nothing like Serg.
Rowdy pulled his gun off his waist and passed it to me. He told me to dead this shit once and for all. I looked at Diamondand felt bad for her. She lived a very miserable life. Since I was also a mother, I didn’t want her son to grow up motherless. I asked the guys if they knew where her phone was, and they passed me a bag with all her belongings in it.
“Do you want your son to know anything before you leave here? I can let you record him a voice memo and send it to whoever has him right now. Jakari is in jail, so I know it has to be your mom or your sister,” I asked Diamond.
Rowdy whispered in my ear and let me know that Taylor had already been taken care of. As much as I wanted to feel sorry or remorseful, I didn’t. The tape was taken off Diamond’s mouth and she literally spat in my direction. Lucky for her, that shit didn’t touch me.
“Diamond, what I need you to do is record a message telling your mom that you and your sister are safe. Tell her that you are taking her out of town with you and that when the smoke clears, you will be back. Tell her not to look for you. Tell your son whatever message you want him to know from your heart. I know you love your son, but you also know this shit gotta come to an end. You’ve done too much, love,” Rowdy told Diamond.
“What happened to my sister? What the fuck did y’all do to her? Let me go, so I can show y’all who y’all done fucked with! Taylor ain’t never did shit to nobody, and now y’all saying something has happened to her, and you want me to lie. Nigga, fuck you! I’m gon’ haunt you bitches for the rest of my life!” Diamond spat.
“If you don’t record the message, your mom and son will be dead. If your mom thinks that you aren’t okay, she’s gonna come looking for you. If she puts her nose in my business, the bitch is as good as dead, so please go on and do what I told you to do!” Rowdy advised.
With eyes full of tears, Diamond reluctantly recorded the message, and I almost cried for her. The way she loved her babyboy was the same way that I loved mine. That’s why Diamond had to die. She put what I loved in danger and threatened my family. She even fucked up my mental and had things done to me that I would never stop having nightmares about.
