Page 151 of Carve Me Free


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“Right.” He narrows his eyes but there's more in them. Amusement and respect maybe. Or perhaps I am imagining it.

He picks up his champagne glass, nods to us and walks away.

***

ÉLISE

I stare at Nico.

He's standing in front of me in a suit that doesn't quite fit, a knee brace visible under the fabric, looking like he just walked off a mountain and into a ballroom he doesn't belong in.

But he's here.

And he just said everything I needed to hear.

"You didn't race," I say quietly.

"No."

"Why?"

"Like I said. Because I want to ski in ten years. And because I finally realized the globe wasn't going to make me enough. Nothing was going to make me enough except deciding I already am."

My throat tightens. "Nico—"

"I'm sorry," he says. "For making your life feel like a cage. For making you the reason I had to prove something. For not letting you stand on your own because I was too busy trying to be the hero."

"You're not—"

"I am. I was." He takes a step closer. "But I'm trying not to be anymore."

I don't know what to say.

So, I just reach for his hand.

He takes it. Holds it tight.

"My father just offered me a job," I say.

His jaw tightens. "At Eiswerk?"

"Yeah."

"Are you going to take it?"

I look at him. At the way he's holding my hand. At the way he's asking, not demanding. Not panicking. Not trying to control the answer.

"No," I say.

He exhales. "Good."

"But not because you don't want me to. Because I don't want to."

"I know."

We stand there for a moment, hands linked, in the middle of a sponsor chalet full of people who don't matter.

"I have an apartment in Salzburg," I say. "Small. Cheap. One bedroom is mine, the rest is shared."