“I didn’t know what the fuck I did, then this morning before she left for work she told my ass that I was too accessible. What the fuck does that even mean?” he had his face screwed up and he was sipping from a glass of what I assumed to be 1942.
“Exactly what the fuck my sister said. If Toya was able to get through the gates to the front door how many other bitches can?”
He looked at me for a moment before he nodded his head. “Why didn’t she just fucking say that? Why do women gotta be so fucking difficult?”
“Because they’re women.” I shook my head and gave him the duh face.
He reached for the phone and dialed a number, before putting it to his ear. “Shit would’ve been easier had she just asked me to change the fucking access code not go fucking mute for the rest of the night and wake up dropping fucking Blue’s Clues.”
I couldn’t help but laugh at how disgruntled he was. I was about to say some slick shit to him, but my phone started ringing in my lap. When I glanced down at the screen I saw that it was Kasey. I hadn’t kicked it with my boy in a minute. Anytime I did pull up it was to his crib and only for a few moments. It was nothing against him, but everything against everything that took place on that block. Nah, I wasn’t scared or anything like that. I just believed in counting your lucky stars and never making the same mistake twice. A nigga caught me lacking and thank God I didn’t lose Surah, but the fact that I could’ve was too much to bear. The brain was a dark ass place and every so often I got lost in it. I kept finding myself buried under all the what ifs that plagued my mind on a daily basis.
“What’s good Kasey?”
“I got something you might wanna hear. It’s about that shit that happened a few months back, bro.”
As soon as he said that I knew exactly what he was talking about and my interests were piqued. I had already told him to let me know if he found out who pulled that shooting before I did. He was in the streets more than me, so I knew there was a possibility that he’d know something before me. The thing is my patience has only gotten me so far because of North. North knew I wanted to blow this shit down and not give a fuck who got chopped down in the process, but the consequences would be too much to bear. Hot streets meant no money was being made, so I knew I had to be patient and move at my own pace with this.
“Where are you?” I asked.
“On my way to my grandmother’s place.”
“Bet. I’m on my way there.”After I hung up with him, I looked up and locked eyes with my brother.
“On your way where?” he had just hung up his office phone and now he was all in my shit.
“To go see what this is Kasey has to tell me. Now, what was all that about.”
“Tell you about what? And I changed the fucking entry code to the house gate. Niggas don’t feel like going home to an attitude or even having one prolonged.”
I chuckled, before standing to my feet and getting ready to go. “You’re just a regular old family man at this point, bro’.”
“And.”
“And nothing. I respect it. I fuck with the fact that you’re finally growing your grown ass up. It’s about time.” I clapped.
“Yo, fuck you. Now what the fuck is Kasey supposed to be telling you?”
I shrugged. “I don’t know, nigga. I'm still standing here in front of you.” By the time I put my coat on he was giving me that parent look. I just knew he wanted to give me an earful, but he didn’t.
“Be the fuck careful and make sure you keep your eyes open.”
“Anything else pops?” I laughed and walked out of the door before he offered to ride with me. Don’t get me wrong I loved my brother, but the nigga was overbearing as fuck and that shit got worse ever since everything happened.
The ride to Kasey’s grandmother’s crib was fairly quick. By the time I pulled up Surah was on my line mad because I let her sleep instead of waking her up this morning before I left.
“I mean you could have at least woke me up, Namari.”
“And why would I have done that? You needed rest and need I remind you that your lil’ ass has been hopping on the dick like a fucking jack rabbit. As a matter of fucking fact why don’t you thank a nigga for the dick and have a hot ass meal ready when I walk in the door.”
She laughed. “Yeah, and while I’m at it let me go back to the fifties and get my slippers. Do you need anything else?”
“You probably don’t even wanna go back that far. With that mouth you would’ve fucked around and found yourself in some trouble.”
She laughed. “Not the point, Namari. How do you know I didn’t have any business in the city today?”
“Because between sucking dick and promising me a baby you told me you didn’t have shit to do for the rest of the weekend. Stop pouting and whining, I should be back on my way out there in about an hour.”
“I didn’t promise you no baby.”
