By the time I pulled up on my sister she was in the back office stuffing her face. Shorty was so enthralled by what she was eating that she didn’t even know I had come in until I knocked on the counter that I was leaned against.
“So, you were just going to stand there and watch me eat?” She still hadn’t stopped eating. She was still gnawing on the breakfast burrito.
“Yeah, I didn’t see no point in interrupting yo’ meal.”
Now she was laughing. “What’s up, Knoxx?”
“I could ask you the same thing. Where the hell have you been lately? I asked pops and he said you’ve been out there by his crib more than your own. You got something you wanna tell me, shorty? I mean I already know what’s up with you and North, but I feel like I’m missing something.”
“Things with he and I are pretty serious an?—”
“I knew that much from the night at the hospital with Surah and from the day your ass was in the hospital. Tell me something I don’t know.”
“Well if you let me finish my sentence then I will. Now can I finish?” She mugged me.
I nodded. “The floor is yours and don’t bullshit me.”
“I didn’t plan to. I’m pregnant, but I haven’t told day yet and I’m re?—”
“With what? A baby.” I looked her over and tilted my head to the side’
She laughed. “No, a cub. Of course a baby, asshole.”
I shook my head, because of all the things I never expected her to be telling me that she was pregnant with another baby. She was a great mother, but she always said she never wantedanymore kids and that Ssiah was it for her. “I thought you didn’t want any more kids.”
“I didn’t and this just happened. Yes I’m on birth control, but that point 1 percent obviously had a mind of its own.”
“How did North take it?’
“Better than me. He wanted it when I wasn’t sure what I wanted.” She shrugged her shoulders.
“What did you want?”
She laughed. “Complex question for this stage of my life, but the simplest answer I can give you is to be happy. I don’t want to look up years down the line and realize that I’m living in regret or unhappiness. I want to be happy with the person who makes me the happiest and vice versa.”
“So, does he make you happy?”
“As fuck.” She smiled just saying that.
“Then what is the problem, shorty?”
“There isn’t one. I’m just by nature an overthinker. Do me a favor and don’t tell dad, I’m going to tell him this weekend when I drop Ssiah off.”
“Yeen gotta worry about me spilling those beans, baby girl. I haven’t even spilled my own. At least you plan to be with the person that you procreated with. I can’t stand Rae’s ass and by the grace of God they don’t rent out semi-trucks, because on my mama I would've flattened her ass with all eighteen of those wheels.”
My sister burst out laughing. “Not all eighteen, Knoxx.”
“Shit not only her, but Miranda’s ass too. I’m tired of females at this point in my life, yo.” I was so serious.
“That’s because you don’t like to be alone. You probably need to go see a therapist or something because it’s always a female. Matter of fact, where is Luna? Did you fuck that up? My girl has been missing in action.”
“Her ass too, but she’s dealing with some personal shit right now. And fuck that I do know how to be alone.” I disagreed with that statement.
“How? There was Rae for fucking ever, then Miranda, then the chick over at the bank. Then the realtor who helped me find this place, then also the news cas—” she was prepared to go on and on, but I had to stop her right there.
“Alright I get it, but if I get a therapist I’ma end up fucking her too so that would be a waste of my time and a breach of ethics for her.”
“True.”
