“Don’t do me like that. I’m gonna call you and we can set that up.”
“Bet and can you do me a favor and tell me when you get Flannel. You know I love that scent.”
“I do and I got you.”
Within seconds she was gone, and I was left in my semi empty space. Maybe I was being too hard on Knoxx and allowingwhat I went through in my past to affect how I felt about him. I wasn’t saying I was in love with him or anything, but I did like him. It had just been a while since I liked anyone. Then the last time I liked or even felt remotely about somebody they turned out to be a fraud. It’s safe to say I had my guards up. As well as the fact that I lived with what I had to do. I lived with the fact that I had to kill the man that I loved for the greater good. That would forever haunt me no matter where I ran to. Maybe I needed to leave things where they were with Knoxx, because the last thing I needed was to introduce him to my baggage.
When I walked in my house the last person I expected to see was seated on my sofa like he had not a care in the world. I wanted to curse him out and tell him that he had no right to be here, but before I could he put his finger to his lips then he nodded his head toward the couch in front of him. I rounded it and spotted my baby girl asleep hugging her favorite teddy bear.
“I have missed so much of her life.”
I mugged him. “By your own merit. You expected me to come crawling back when you treated me like I was nothing to you.”
“I had to. You wouldn’t listen to me. You’ve always been bullheaded. Just like me. You had to learn things the hard way.”
I laughed. “The hard way. Well I was forced to learn a lot.”
He nodded his head in agreement. “You were and as much as I’d like to apologize I won’t. What you’ve been through has made you capable of surviving anything. The skills you have learned are necessary.”
I laughed at this attempt to win me over with compliments. “What do you want, Belarus?”
“You should consider coming home. I could have had you brought home but look at me. I am trying to turn over a new leaf and be better.” He looked so convincing but again I knew my father.
“Belarus.”
“I don’t know if you know this or not, but there is a war brewing in the streets. It wasn’t hard for me to find yo?—”
“And that means?”
“If I knew where you were this whole time, so did others. Just because you distance yourself from the family doesn’t mean you’re not a part of it. They’ll still try to use you to get to me.”
“Dista—”
“Don’t argue. Just give an old man a little piece of mind and tell me you’ll think about it.”
I nodded. “I’ll think about it.”
“Good.” He glanced down at my baby before his eyes went back to me. “Your mother would love to meet her.”
I nodded but didn’t offer a response. My mother wasn’t even a thought to me. Out of everybody who turned their backs on me, hers hurt the most. That was because I was closer to my mother than anything in this world. She hurt me deep when she chose him over me.
“I will be seeing you soo?—”
“Where is my babysitter?”
“She wasn’t sitting anything but her face. My grandchild should have much better protection than such.”
I laughed. “Goodnight Belarus.”
I was about to walk him to the door when my front door opened and one of his guards awaited.
Before he went to the door he leaned down and kissed my daughter’s forehead before he kissed mine as well. I hated how no matter what he was right. Family was family and no matter how far I was from them I still loved them. I might’ve been angrywith every single one of them, but that didn’t make me love them any less. I didn’t have that in my heart. I don’t think I could ever be the way I used to be with them, but I couldn’t hate them…No matter how much I wanted to.
Knoxx
Rea had been avoiding me like I was the plague lately. She had to know that her auntie spilled the beans. She had been missing in action completely. It was cool because I planned to catch her ass when she least expected it. I paid the receptionist to let me know when she came in. Lucky for me she went to work today. No matter how bad I wanted to run up in there and snatch her the fuck up, I didn’t. I checked myself in the door, because I knew that if I got her fired and she was indeed carrying my baby I’d be monetarily responsible for her stupid ass. The receptionist messaged me about five minutes ago and told me that Rae’s break was about to start. That’s why I parked right in front of her job.
I got out of the car and walked around to the passenger side of the car. Then I opened the door and stood there. I caught her about twenty seconds later. She was so into her fucking phone that she didn’t see me until it was too late. She walked right into my chest. When she looked up and saw it was me, I could see the horror in her eyes. Yeah, her auntie was right.
