“I’ll give it all up. I can’t lose you.”
“I would never ask you to do that.”
“I’m offering. Please, don’t do this.” He wasn’t above begging.
“Ryder,” he shouted. “Will you shut the fuck up and let me speak?”
Ryder was stunned, but Felix smiled at him and he relaxed.
“When I was on the way to meet you, some guy I was at college with confronted me on the train with two of his goons.”
Ryder struggled to breathe. Had someone else hurt him? He immediately looked all over Felix to see if there was any evidence.
“Relax, he didn’t hurt me. He believed I’d stolen you from him because you’d replied to a couple of his comments.”
Ryder groaned. Ninety-nine percent of the time, when he replied to a comment it made the person’s day. He lovedgiving that to someone. Then there was the one percent who read far too much into it. Ryder had needed to hire someone to deal with his DMs, which were insane. There was no need for any porn subscriptions with all the unsolicited pics he had there. His poor PA had been given a well-deserved pay rise, given the filth she had to wade through daily.
“He was going to follow me to the park, so you could see you had a better option.”
“Nobody’s a better option than you. I’d have told him to fuck off.”
“I’d have liked to see that, but it made me realize we could never have had that amazing kiss or talked like this if we had an audience. All I’m asking is that we find time every day for this. For just us. And that we assume nothing without talking to each other first.”
“Do you mean?”
“Yes, Ryder. I love you. Of course I want to be with you, and your crazy life.”
Ryder pulled Felix forward and claimed his mouth. It didn’t have the same heat as before. This was a gentle kiss, expressing their love for each other. There’d been no hesitation that Ryder would have closed all his social media accounts if it was the only way he could be with Felix.
“Shall we go?” asked Felix.
“Where?”
“You said something about talking in bed.”
Ryder’s cock went from semi to full mast. He was very on board with that suggestion. He knew he still had to work on how he reacted to things that hurt him, and would make time to keep seeing his therapist. The one good thing to come out of the last week was his test results had all come back clear. His heart must have been trying to tell his dick that he was now a one-person man. He grabbed Felix and threw him over his shoulder.
“What are you doing?” he asked, laughing.
“Taking you back to my cave until next year.”
“Put me down.”
Ryder ignored his plea. He had no intention of ever letting this man go.
CHAPTER 18
FELIX
Felix groaned with pleasure. He’d never felt so full as Ryder pushed his monumental cock further into him. Even spending the last week being impaled by the beast on the daily, it still took some getting used to.
Ryder was always patient with Felix, but once he was fully relaxed and told his boyfriend to let go, he experienced pleasure like nothing else. His boyfriend? Yes, Ryder Quinn was his boyfriend. This had been the craziest month of his life, but he wouldn’t change anything. They wouldn’t be here now if the start of their relationship hadn’t tested them so much.
“Are you ready, baby?” asked Ryder.
Felix was on his stomach. He had the weight of Ryder’s muscular body on top of him, pressing him into the mattress. He loved the sensation of being completely owned by this man.
“Go for it,” he said with a smile.
