My heart was in my throat, and the entire room felt like it was pulsing with the intensity of the decision Jay was asking me to make.
I knew what my answer was, and I knew the decision I was about to make was going to hurt us both in the end.
But I was Milo Murphy.
I was used to living through the devastating repercussions of my actions.
This one, for the first time, felt like it might be worth it.
“Never.”
“What?” Jay croaked, his face crumbling in devastation.
I frowned, realizing he was misunderstanding me.
“You said if I wanted you to leave, it was now or never. I choosenever.”
He blinked at me in surprise, then his entire body seemed to relax in relief. He cupped my face with both hands, a long, slow breath leaving him in a shudder.
“Thank fuck,”he rasped, and then, he was kissing me.
NOVA play: Close by Nick Jonas, Tove Lo
Jay literally crawled on top of me in his desperation to get closer. Our kiss in the hallway at Memory Tap had been slow and exploratory. This kiss was different. It was all fire and passion.
His tongue was in my mouth, and the moment we connected, I lost the ability to think. My entire body was an open nerve ending, and I groaned as he slid his hands under my shirt, trailing lines of molten magma up my sides.
“My-loh…”he moaned, shoving my shirt farther up my chest. I raised my arms, grateful I hadn’t done up the top two buttons, so it could easily slide over my head as he pushed it off me.
“Fuck…” he breathed, leaning back and reaching over his head to grab the back of his t-shirt. He tore it off, exposing his own chest to me, and I was panting as I stared up at him.
He was lean, but fit. The lines of his abs tapered into a sexy V that disappeared into the waist of his joggers, and his dark nipples had hardened into tiny points.
My mouth flooded with saliva as he looked down at me with heavy-lidded eyes.
He ran his hands up my stomach and pinched each of my nipples between his warm fingers, and I whined, arching helplessly into his touch.
“Jesus, Milo… you’re so responsive…” he growled before diving down to suck on the sensitive skin on my neck. “You’re so fucking sexy…” he murmured, kissing down my jaw and finding my mouth again.
Sexy?
No one had ever called me sexy in mylife.My head swam with emotion as he kissed the words against my tongue.
He bit and sucked on my lips until I was whimpering and rolling my hips up into him. We were both hard again, and the room was full of wet kissing sounds coupled with my tiny desperate pants.
He threaded his fingers into my hair as he devoured my mouth, rocking his hard cock into mine, and I gasped at the tingling bursts of pleasure that erupted through me at the friction.
“Jaaayyy…”I whined as he broke our kiss, his chest heaving with each breath.
He let out a breathy laugh and began to kiss a hot, wet path down my chest.
“Milllooooo…”he cooed back, his tone teasing. I gasped as he dragged his blunt fingernails down my chest, continuing his descent down my flushed body.
I wiggled my hips as his hot mouth licked and sucked at the thin skin on my abs. I wasn’t nearly as fit as Jay was. I’d always been a little on the skinny side, but Jay was making me feel so attractive for the first time in my life.
It was like he couldn’t get enough of me, and it was so hot my cock was literally throbbing in my pants.
He looked up at me and made eye contact as he dragged his tongue in a flat, horizontal line across my abdomen, chasing the edge of my waistband.
